Friday, April 16, 2004
riiiight. like i am supposed to know. want me to read your mind or something. erm.. ok. whatever. haha. :D
whee. just got back. went to kallang to support seniors.. sorry ah gu.. couldn't stay to watch your match. haha. know what yuki said. jiejie camille, today you very pretty. haha. then after that she HAD to add. haha. but jiejie rebecca more pretty. hah. stupid becky.. gloating in my face.. but it's ok.. i know i'm not pretty. complimented already. :D thanks yuki. :D
deeda. think i'll go and train later.. need to hit the ball. so fat and rusty liaohx.. haha. i supposed to be on a diet. but what. i just ate macs meal. stupidity.
sorry angma! i left without you.. really sorry. -slaps myself- sorry.. :S
sorry xiang.. gramma wanted me to get in.. sorry. aiyo. i'm apologising to the whole world. whee. i'm really tired. thank goodness there isn't a lot of homework this weekend..
guys. boys. men. aiyo. can't stand them. and they say they'll never understand women. and we claim we understand them. my friends are boy crazy lah.. seriously.. madness. i think guys are just normal humans.. haha. treat them like i treat girls.. hmm. yeah. i don't go round flirting like siao.. whee.
charisma.. haha. something i soooooo don't have. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.
omg. today i almost kissed becky on the lip! ewww.. gross gross gross. i'm straight! it was an accident. stupid friend of mine pushed me towards her.. eh. i know she's my ex but still don't have to liddat right. later my gf get jealous.. who's fault.. i'm sooo a 2 timer and i'm proud of it. is that how guys feel? woah. such jerks. haha. watch too much fei yi ban mama. haha. chris lee. -grin- his bod quite nice.. not too bad lah.. michelle saram. hmm. mixed. like me.. i think she's really quite pretty at certain angles. and her laughter is just so kissable. really. i don't know how laughter is kissable. but hers is lah.. you hear her laugh and you feel like kissing her.. as in.. if i were a guy.. i'm NOT a butch. ergh. my hair's shorter than some butches in my school. the diff is i wear a hairband.. but the only reason i wear is to hide my tail.. haha. or i'll just get slaughtered lah.
recess, my friends and i were laughing like siao lah. haha. as usual. lieww. kena sent out of class for the second time already. the first time wasn't my fault ok! i was absent so i didn't have my book with me.. then she sent practically half the class out cos they didn't do. hmm. then today, so suay. science teacher walked around class looking at the workbook. sigh. this one really my fault. haiz. feel terrible. i totally forgot to do it. i'm sorry. my bad. :S haiz. i better start getting serious about school. i'm just playing like crazy lah. aiyo. my results suck everything 70+ lor.. WHAT is this. ergh. haiz. cam! you better buck up. i don't know what's right with me. haiz.
but i'm really comforted by the thought that practically none of my classmates have started studying. of course there are those ooba guai ones.. whom i once belonged to. now no more. i really lost it. TOTALLY lost it. liew.. it's depressing. even t chung and chiew can tell that i've changed a lot. as in my attitude towards studying. it's a horrible attitude which i really hate. but i'm not doing anything about. i know i suck.
haiz. ok. i think i'll nap. i'm really sleepy. nitez.
so they said.
Thursday, April 15, 2004
whee. listening to my piano pieces. i think i've got to be most untalented musician on earth.. haha. seriously. i have no sense of music. if there's such a thing. i can't play the piano for nuts.. haha. i don't even practise.. but piano is really fun.. haha. :D i remember there was this big issue about me wanting to quite piano.. know why.. i think cos i hated the teacher, just that i didn't want to admit it to my mum.. and yeah.. we fought over it. and i was really very pissed with her. i remember her saying. "if you quit you'll regret it, next time when you think about it, you'll thank me" haha. can't stand that phrase. .it's SUPER irritating.
hmm. is ditsy ditsy, or is ditsy, ditzy. confuzzled. haha. min taught us that word.. haha. whee. she called rachel and warah ditsies. i thought warah was a bimbo..? hmmm. don't know.. i think she's the prettiest out of all of us.. :S haha. min's a definite bimbo.. can't stand these chio bus. irritating. haha. :D
deeda. i finally saw who aleathia is. well i THINK it's correct. hm. my friends were right. honestly, yeah. she doesn't look like the person who would idolize me. hahahahahaha. i think we're worlds apart. i'm this slacker, screamy person.. haha. and she's erm.. the opposite. kinda.
study group really helps me get to know my friends better. i realise that changing places isn't that bad after all, you get to mix with others. somehow i'm more comfortable mixing with others as compared to last time.. haha. that's good. :D
deeda. stupid miss neoh, call becky and me show offs.. haha. cos everybody was helping to put the napfa stuff back into place in the hall. both of us being the most stubborn out of the whole class were still the only ones playing badminton.. haha. and everybody was crowding round watching us.. haha. then miss neo stood in the middle of the game and gave us that annoyed look. humph. haha. think she was in a good mood. haha. becky's fun to play badminton with.. cos we're squashers so yeah.. whee. tennis is my lousiest of the 3. haha. squash's my best.. like duh. yeah. whee. i just sneezed. excuse me. -grin-
just screamed real loud. cos haha. there's an insect like right next to my door.. aiyo. super big.. i think insects love me.. aiyo. my table forever have flies and bees. and think the teacher's are quite pissed with me cos i keep running from my table to the front of the classroom. once becky played a trick on me. and i SCRREEEEEEEEAMED. aiyo. haha. tomorrow got geog test i haven't finished studying for.. ergh. crap. and i'm blogging how intelligent. bleagh. who cares actually. haha. only 2 more lessons to go. tonight no need to sleep lor.
squash.. has died down a bit.. and now i'm getting FAT. ergh.. haha. REALLY fat. ok. shall stop talking about fats.
ohoh! today science presentation went quite well.. :D haha. whee. yeah. sophia and i talked about chocolates.. haha. i kept talking and talking.. cos she didn't know what to say. so i was like telling her what to say and everything.. haha. and half the time, i was making scientific crap up.. stupid becky she yelled. "eh! i bet you made that rubbish up!" haha. once again.. i managed to make everybody laugh.. :D chocolates are sooo interesting..
WHEE! audrey won 2 tickets to 50 first dates.. she called in to perfect 10.. woah.. she rocks lah. haha. :D
omg. today english was SUPER funny. wait wait, the BEGINNING of english was super funny, yeah. ms leong rocks. haha yup. ms leong came into class. and we greeted her half laughing. then i announced "ms leong! we got a song to sing for you! one, two, three" my clique and i started singing "ms leong ms leong so kan cheong, run so fast, like min kyeong(our friend) already have mr hong, still can have mr yong" we were screaming and crying as we said that.. my friends broke in to hysterics halfway.. and i was struggling so hard to finish the song... haha. cos my san-jie, who's name is clare. got this letter from her friend "clare, clare like a bear, runs so fast like a hare, although she already cares, she's still got so much love to share" hahaha. liew.. i read until cry lor.. hahahahahhahahaha. SUPER funnny.
isn't my class just the funkiest.. haha. :D whatever.. ALL the teachers are surprised that our class is so spunky. cos 2SY usually all the brainy and quiet people.. but this year we're SUPER noisy.. we're like the noisiest class ever.. cos why? they put becky and me together.. haha. BEEG mistake.. last year. was quite ok.. cos my class all the new people. i didn't have a SINGLE friend with me. this year we know each other SOOO much better. i think my sec 2 year will be the best.. haha. :D yay. kk. better go and study. tata! -peace-
"sometimes goodbye though it hurts
is the only way now for destiny
sometimes goodbye though it hurts
is the only way now for you and me
though it's the hardest thing to say
i'll miss your love in every way
so say goodbye
but don't you cry
cos true love never dies"
-say goodbye-
s club.
the song rocks lah. haha. :D
so they said.
Wednesday, April 14, 2004
boo. whee. super tired. why am i always tired? that's bad, means i'm unhealthy. well it's not my fault i can sleep a lot lah.. ahha. :D watching the easter concert for the millionth time. love it. haha.
whee. my appendix or whatever it is still hurts. it didn't hurt the whole time in school. thank God. i was so scared. i dreamt that i collapsed halfway on the track during pe. but it did hurt a bit during our warm-up run.. how pathetic can i get! 2 rounds.. hahaha. laupok. but yeah. i was really scared. had a nightmare last night. i dreamt that when i woke up i started to cough and had a fever and vomitted. symptoms of appendicitis you see. hmm. yeah. totally freaked myself out.
today had napfa test. i think it's a really lousy test.. considering you only do it once.. not like all the time.. so yeah. dumb. haha. but i haven't been exercsing since don't know when.. hehez. i know. but.. yeah. my appendix. and i'm taking a break after nataionals. when my appendix don't scare me anymore.. i'll get back into shape.. whee. yeah. napfa.. astounding results this year.. haha. not really. OMG. i jumped 201 for standing broad jump. then 2nd jump jumped 190.. -jaw drops- can you believe this blob of fats jumped that far.. haha. can't believe.. stupid sanjie.. she HAS to jump 230.. irritating. hahaha. :D haha. i did the minimum number of situps to get a.. haha. :D as usual.. san jie has to do 53.. but nevermind.. i wasn't aiming for that.. i think she wanted to do 60+ haha. whee. i'm still super happy about my standing broad jump which i think.. the teacher's kinda screwed.. how can i jump 201.. please.. aiyo.. i can't jump for nuts.. bleaugh. yeah.. sit and reach.. my all time worst.. haha. i got a b.. hehez. can't believe it though. right smack on the dot, b. oosh. pull ups.. haha. muscular but no strength.. i haven't been doing my weights and push ups.. where got tone.. please.. haha. been super slack.. left arm turning to fats already. know what i hate my arms.. i think they're the grossest thing in the world.. they're seriously humongous.. comparing to my body size. stupid friends.. going on about how i look like a guy.. "look at her hair, look at her arms.." stupid.. they called me him lor.. for the millionth time. i'm NOT a butch, nor do i want to be.. i'm just more comfortable with super short hair. and it's not my fault i'm not allowed to shave bald. nor do i look good bald.. ahah. deeda. yup. yeah. as i was saying. my arms are gross.. hate them. and i'm not even a swimmer. stupid push ups and weights..lemme continue. yeah. pull ups.. haha. 18? lousy lah... i'm super fat and heavy.. can't pull myself up one.. haha. shuttle run. sigh.. still as slow as ever. managed to break my own record.. but only by a bit. aiyo.. by sec 4 i better hit 9 secs man.. timing was ok lah.. not very good, not very bad.. 10.26. 10.15 haiz. teacher was like take bigger strides girls, take bigger strides.. haha you should have seen the girls who were trying to listen to her.. i was laughing and laughing. they looked super comical.
talking about comical. my class was marking another classes comprehension which we set for them.. omg. SUPER funny. we were laughing our head of.. hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. a few questions.. hm.. no. shan't write any here. it's really too mean. cos.. hmm yeah. comparing of classes and all that. people confirm say we look down on them. aiyah. hate it when they use classes to differentiate us.. always EXPECTING 2SY. ergh.. nvm. and.. please. our english is also bleaugh... ahah. well mine is that is. :D
deeda. hit the ball and wall a bit today. man i'm rusty. haha. :D but it's ok. i'll train back into form again.. whee. i'm bored. and it's starting to hurt again. think i'll just go and lie down or something. tata. :D
so they said.
Tuesday, April 13, 2004
know what. i've decided to be happy. instead of wallowing in it all day long. been thinking about it quite a bit lately. when it's totally the opposite of what i wanted to happen. totally stop thinking. aiyo. i'm a complete paradox. yeah. poor thing. can't talk to her. haha. don't mind that you don't tell me anything. prolly cos you believe the message does get to me. like super fast. but, hello. i'm like always the last to get anything.
kor rocks. as usual. just let everything out. and he kinda made me wake up.
for the 3rd time this year. im not in school. i really feel like dropping out of school. but can't. yeah. hmm. pain. where the appendicitis place is.. yeah. pain down there. right side. couldn't get up and walk properly this morning. super pain. yeah. "you walk past me, i can feel your pain" hahahaha. i LOOOOOOOVE josh groban.. ah.. ah...
know what. i don't like songs which remind me painfully of stuff. like prince of egypt. hahaahhaa. the lullaby. my favourite song. sigh. ouch. "in my eyes you do no wrong" is that love? or is that infatuation? we're learning it in cme. haha. had cme test yesterday. haha. i'm soooo morally upright. i could crap out so many answers. they asked why do teenagers go steady.. haha. like what? i'm so the right person to be asked that.. hahahahahaha. duh.. i actually listen in class. plus. yeah. i guess i understand. studying bgr is fun.. it's interesting. omg.. i but i think i'm still super SUPER immature. i still go eeeh at those real life mushy stuff people do for other people. i think it's gross. i don't think i ever want to see anybody french in front of me.. actually i do. but i'll laugh my head off. sorry. yeah. i've still got such a kiddy mindset when it comes to love. haha.
"i wish upon tonight to see you smile" what song is that? i don't know. heard it somewhere i think. don't think i made that up myself.. can't remember if i did. doubt it.. haha. but yeah. haven't seen you smile in a long time. deeda. ok. shall stop talking about you. haha.
have i mentioned my gramma's coming to bring me to the doctors. and i want to cut my hair.. it's sooo long. know how i know it's long. when i can't spike my hair anymore.. hahaha. yup. need to buy wax. then can spike my hair. yeah. know what. i can just bind my boobs and pose as a guy. just shaddup don't talk and walk around orchard. my friends wanted me to do that the other time.. except i didn't bind.. haha. they wanted to see how many girls would turn and stare at me.. and stalk me.. aiyo. but we didn't go to orchard in the end. haha. went to waffleton. and i was wearing stripey slippers. do guys wear my favourite stripey slippers which are broken!!?? :'( kk. i think my gramma's coming. better go. tata.
so they said.
Monday, April 12, 2004
bleagh.
unwilling. do i have to. i don't want to. stubborn. i guess. still don't want. nothing happened.
headache. why. doing my favourite subject's homework. liew.. i totally forgot about it.. and it's due tomorrow. well i'm done with it. omg.. i'm typing on my computer.. can't believe it! it's working. i kissed it when it went on. haha. i loooove you. haha. oh yes. my favourite subject which i find a miracle to pass. art.. hahaha. i absolutely hate art. hahahahaha. i got an f last year.. hahaha. surprised i didn't get a z. i just suck at art.. haha. you want scary pictures? you come to me. i'll draw you an impressionist painting.. not expressionist. my impressionist is scary too. haha. my teacher said my expressionist work was the exact same as my impressionist. well, it's not exactly my fault that my face doesn't change in 2 weeks. ahaz. it's the same person. me. haha. but aiyo.. my friends always make fun of me cos i can't draw.. they never let me do anything to do with art.. seriously. they don't even let me touch the class board.. hahaahahaha. that time OM, they didn't let me do the backdrop.. HAHAHA. so mean. aiyo.. looking at my artwork.. can laugh like siao. i'm sooo never going to join arts.. yet i don't want to join sciences. how. i join what. squash. sigh. i want to just pursue squash. nothing but squash. but my mum will probably kill me. and what happens if i injure myself permanently and cannot play squash. what am i going to do with my life.. sigh.. better conitnue studyin.. deeda.
i'm going to study history later. yay. i'm starting to study. -pats head- haha. omg.
today. during recess. a girl was pulling another girl towards our table. but. being the blind and stupidest out of everyone, i didn't see the girl's face.. aiyo. my friends ah.. they totally rock. san-jie from the front of the classroom yelled to the other end of the classroom. TRANG! I'M GOING TO SEE WHAT ALETHIA LOOKS LIKE! and half my class ran down to her class.. aiyo.. they came back. haha. should have seen their faces.. sho funny. but i shan't be mean and put down what they said. but.. yeah. it's freaky..
i want to cut my hair!! it's super lonnnnnnnnnng. aiyo. help. dying of long hairness. actually my art piece looks good from far.. on second thought no. ok. i suck. haha. i know. everybody knows.
whee. ah! today a man came to our school. he was hot.. wearing a tight black tee.. can see his bod.. not bad.. a bit overdevoloped at the chest.. but nice.. PLUS he's shuai.. hahaahaahahah. came to do some shakespear thingy.. nice!!! loved it. yup. and then.. the best part.. becky, meiyi and i were sitting right at the back. it was the end, and they were sitting at the edge of the stage.. yup. and they were asking any questions? haha. i was like.. let's ask "what's your number" "how old are you?" "are you available" haha. ok sorry lah. but he was hot.. he had those david copperfield eyes.. woah.. so mysterious.. and HOT!!!! CAN'T STAND IT.. aiyo... rarely get this kinda guys in my school. my school.. er.. lack of guys huh.. hahahahahahhahah. joking.. :D
uh huh. then ok. i was leaning on my hand. meiyi was rubbing her nose and becky scratching her head. then the cute guy says. "yes! i see some half raised hands at the back.. yes?" WAH LAO.... the whole auditorium turned around to look at us. then becky and meiyi happily turned their head to look at me. i was like HUH!? WHAT!? nono. i wasn't raising my hand! and the vice principal was like.. yes girls.. speak louder.. realise the actors and actresses don't need mikes, so practise throwing your voice. i was like WHAT!? NO..?! I was frantically thinking of a question.. and everybody was like.. camille! camlle! camille! and laughing and laughing.. i hated becky and meiyi.. everybody didn't stop looking. why? cos both of them looked at me.. lieww.. forever kena this kinda thing. thank goodness somebody saved me by asking a question.. don't know who.. but THANK YOU.. the stupidest thing was 2 mins later after they answered the question.. i raised up my hand and asked a question.. i think the name loser was spelt on my face.. haha. sorry lah.. my brain a bit slow..
but i really enjoyed the performance.. they're really good. of course HE'S good. whee. yesterday was the soccer game.. ahaha. min spotted a 20 degrees handsome guy.. that means he only looks cute at a 20 degrees angle.. haha. i was staring at him the whole time.. haha .sorry. was trying to see what he looked like.. but omg. he's super yaya. he jumped over the SUPER low wire.. and he almost fell flat on his face.. i was laughing and laughing. awww. we were 1-2 down.. so sad.. i was cheering like a retard. as usual. min lah.. don't want to cheer with me.. i was trying to commentate.. but half the time i was screaming and trying to follow the ball. kept asking who that was.. i'm a bit blind lah.. haha. :D i think gavin scored the goal. i didn't see.. it had started to rain and we were walking back into the shade when he scored. and it was 5 mins after that when we started to cheer. a bit retarded sia.. not my fault. jojo's going to be soooo jealous.. haha. i was actually talking to joash.. haha. :D strategy.. -shakes head- hahahaah. ok. whatever. sadly they didn't finish the game.. there was lightning and all. haha. handsome twin rocks.. :D haha.
people change. honestly i don't like people to change.. but yeah. hmm. just got to get used to that new person. we'll all change i guess. we're growing up.. stuff happen. so eeeeeyah. i guess. just got to live with changes. whee. ok. i'm getting tired.. but i still want to blog.
oh man......... min says i've put on weight. AGAINNNNNNNNNNN......... no.. i've been exercising like siao.. well.. yah i've been pigging out a LOT too. so yes. i better get back into shape man.. i'm going to do my sit ups.. turn my fats into pacs.. my 2 is disappearing..!!! ahhh. come back!! haha. it's quite gross having pacs.. but better than fats right. whee. omg. napfa is this wednesday. i'm SUPER screwed. haha. hope can pass.. hahaahahahahahahahhahhahaha.
got not much to say. except chinese test has been postponed? like huh. ok.. oh yes. i'm going to do my qt today. yes. well. kk. bye. :D]
so they said.
Sunday, April 11, 2004
i looove this song. woot. go britney. she's fat. she's gorgeous. she dances good. wow.. love her music videos. me against the music has cool dance moves.. which i was still a dancing.. miss dancing like crap.
Come notice me
And take my hand
So why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?
And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby
I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy
And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby
I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry
Ohhhh
At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away
And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby
After all...
After all...
so they said.
back from church. done with my homework. what is wrong with my mother. pmsing izzit. whole day so irritating. sigh. ignoring her. whee. dada rocks. ahah. he made me laugh for half an hour.. hahahaha. i was rolling on the floor laughing and laughing. why? the door stubbed his toe, then he said ow, and his natural reaction was to kick his leg back, and i was walking behind him, he kicked my knee. and i found that soooo hilarious i didn't stop laughing.
hm. jie. talking bout how people fall in love in 2 months. why not. it's them. anyway. i'm trying to make myself happy. i guess. i think. don't know. yeah. i think maybe a bit. cos. yeah. was for you. then. stopped. and drifted. drifted real far. claimed nothing happened. but why can't i be happy for them? shouldn't i be.. considering.. yeah. i don't know. omg. i really hope not. it better not. think people sense it.. the way my face turns. where i look. how i look. how i respond. i think it's getting more obvious. k. stop.
omg. min said i put on weight!! ah.. so sad!! ok. i'm so going to diet and exercise like mad.. i better stop pigging out already. uh oh.. haha. whee. FAT. woah.. short and fat.. that's a BAD combination. short and muscular and fat.. that's worse!?!?!?! that's me. rachel, stop complaining about your flabs. do you want MY arms.. aiyo. they're so muscular they're gross. eek. kk. maybe going for the soccer game later.. go and cheer for our church!! whoo. go bethany! yay. :D ahaz. yeah. wanna go nap. tata.
so they said.
Haha. i know i'm supposed to be in church now. but this morning i couldn't wake up. therefore im still home. will give uncle john a call in a bit asking him if i could take a lift to church..
omg. i cooked my own breakfast. know what? maggi mee. hahahahahahaha. stupid.. haha. but hey. for camille to cook an edible meal without blowing the whole kitchen up is a feat! come on give it up!! whoo. haha. it tastes good. the best part is.. i actually added ingredients too!! yay. mushrooms, fishball and egg. hahahaha. i'm such a good cook! haha. thank goodness for home econs classes, if not i'll starve.. haha.ok. done eating. i can type faster now.. woah.. i'm full. no need to eat lunch liaoh. ahaz.
oh! haha. i've got a twin brother. sho cool! just that he was born 5 years before i was. aha. he wants to be known as handsome twin.. like um.. ok.
deeda. yesterday was super hyper even thought i didn't the chance to nap in the afternoon. haha. andrea, kor and i were laughing in the car. andrea and i were screaming.. aiyo.. both of miss the days where we would go over to each other's houses to play.. hahahahahahaha. it was SUPER fun.. *burp* excuse me. so full. yeah.
concert was good!! i sang my lungs out man.. i can't believe i still have my voice.. ooooooh. haha. so sad though the sanctuary was not full at all. but it's ok. i guess. we did it for the Lord. :D the sense of satisfaction is really great.
becky and kimby came. eh. i love them man.. they totally made my day. cos i thought nobody was coming for concert. i invited like 20 people.. all couldn't make it.. humph. yeah. then i saw them in the audience my heart was super lifted up. ahaz. becky FINALLY met kor.. she's been wanting to see him for HOWWWW long already. aiyo.. my friends think sot is SUPER pretty. and wormy's cute. aiyo. then when i show them pic of wormy they say he's not cute. please. i've got good taste man. haha. kor suddenly so friendly ah.. kept walking over towards us.. and. he kept dropping stuff. *cough* so loser.. hahahahahahahahahahaha. seriously. meet a girl and then, drop stuff and do stupid things. no wonder he's go no girlfriend. aiyo.. hahahahahahahahahhahah. i was laughing like crazy. we were taking a lot of things. haha. chio bu rocks. haha. :D she's really so darn sweet i can't stand it know!! feel like eating her up. haha.
becky said that our choir is superb and our teen's choir is very strong.. ahah. thanks babe. :D obviously they commented about rachael. woot! she said jem sang well, and he can sing damn high. i'm quoting becky so i don't have to slap myself. right.
whee. doesn't everybody except the few of us think becky is chio? haha. twin says so. haha. aiyo.
yup. should call uncle john soon. so i better go and get ready.
linkin park rocks. i LOVE their music. just feel like screaming with them. well yeah. tata.
Iwanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve felt so long
(Erase all the pain till it’s gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real
I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong
If I could change I would
Take all the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
If I could take all the shame and the pain I would
If I could change I would
Take all the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all the shame and the blame
It's easier to run replacing this pain with something long
It’s so much easier to run
Replace all this pain here all alone
Some things I remember but thought the soul bypassed
Bringing back these memories I wish I didn’t have
Sometimes I think I’m letting go and never looking back
I never really thought so, I never realized?
so they said.
