Saturday, May 22, 2004
ok. yes. and this is now. hahahaha. gawsh. i'm stoopid. sigh. ahha. anyway. yeah. i've come up with a new word "zuper" hahaha. not really nice. but yeah. i accidentaly said it today. haha. :D whee. was going seriously hyper. but it died after that. haha. i was forcing some noise to come out of my throat during choir. seriously couldn't sing. blahdeeblah. super tired.
trained like siao. haha. sigh. got really pissed with my performance today. i don't..... ah. shaddup. stupid. ERGH. i'm going crazy. i've got blisters EVERYWHERE, and i've pulled practically every possible muscle. as i have mentioned before. haha. sickening. yeah. and i've got training tomorrow. starting indi. woah. i didn't even consult anyone. i just made the decision in 2 secs. huh. i'm going to die. know what my training is like. monday. train in school. wed and friday training with the intermediate squad. sat train in school. sunday got indi. omg. then it's back to monday again. crazy larh. seriously. thank goodness my coach is coming here. whee. :D haha. he's coming at 5 so must rush home after church. and i'm DEAD i haven't started on my homework. but who cares.. ergh. ahha. :D
min's taking us out on friday. she's really excited. mwahaha. HAHAHA. think it's really funny that she's so excited. so excited to go out with us. hahahhahahaha. US. the loud group. mahah. okok. i'm honoured that you're excited. :D min rocks. she's sooo nice. :D deedum. and i'm blur. period.
jeremy is sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo funny. aiyo. he makes me laugh like crap. su-ann, bent, man, jer and i were just standing outside the lift laughing like crap. liew. so funny man.. ahahahahahahahha. he rocks man. seriously. i remember the first time i talked to him was in youth conference. 3 of us were talking and i remember him suaning us. and you gave him a funny look and i almost punched him. haha. yeah. then you went home and ladeeda. both of us just stood there talking until i got chased up by t. li yen. haha!
i wanna watch shrek 2!! arghhh. haha. :D jojo's watching troy now.. her movie started at 9 it's going to end at what 12am. poor girl. haha. :D OMG. my friend told me that brad's butt wasn't bradd's butt at all. it was a double. it wasn't really his legs and butt. that's ZUPER sad lah.. omg. *sob* ahhhhhhhhhh. cannot be. nono! ahhhh. -dies- haha. i've got nobody's arse to grab anymore.
ooh. just watched anastasia on disney channel (the ULTIMATE channel) haha. too bad they don't show barney if not disney channel would be the best channel on EARTH. haha. yeah. i'm in love with demetri. he's sooo handsome!? omg. how you fall in love with cartoons i don't know. but his smile is soooo nice. and i bet he kisses good. haha. :P yeah. she's ZUPER pretty larh. her eyes are soooo beeg and pretty. haha. the dog is the EPITOME of cuteness man. woah. haha. it's even cuter than shadow (becky's dog) haha. :D
i've got 2 orh chei's (i don't know how to spell. it's blue-black in english) on my left knee. haha. cannnot tahan. super pain. bleagh. whee.
what's with the sudden closeness. i also don't know. ever since. then yeah. actually before you did. but yeah. haha. i'm sorry dude. we're already related. thru him. so yeah. you can't be my anything. haha. you've already got a daughter anyway.. mwahaha. and i've got a kor. don't know what you could be. or nothing also can. cos you're already related to me. indirectly larhx. yupyup. i've got to sleep now. kk. buhbye. XD
i'm
think i'm feeling it.
so they said.
liew. i'm damn blur. i actually posted the wrong message at the wrong blog lah. this was this morning. then i saw it at my OTHER blog. i'm confused.. i don't know which one it was supposed to be for though.. HUH!? man. i'm stoopid like anything. -blur-
I'll let you go
I'll let you fly
Why do I keep on asking why
I'll let you go
Now that I found
A way to keep somehow
More than a broken vow
Tell me the words I never said
Show me the tears you never shed
Give me the touch
That one you promised to be mine
Or has it vanished for all time
I close my eyes
And dream of you and I
And then I realize
There's more to life than only bitterness and lies
I close my eyes
I'd give away my soul
To hold you once again
And never let this promise end
whee. nice song. uh huh! i'm at home. cos training times changed. irritating. now we, as SENIORS have to take the afternoon slot. we're now officially the b team. sigh. haha. yeah. so training for top 3 is at 11 and the rest comes at 12.30. i hate streamlining. bleagh.
yesterday was SUPER tiring. morning, school hours went on battlefields tour. quite boring actually. mwahahz. yeah. quite ok. the company made it fun. :D we the battle box at fort canning was SUPER scary. we were all screaming like mad. the wax figurines didn't help man. then haha. one guy suddenly appeared in front of us and we screamed like siao. i think we scared him more than he scared us. hahahahah. sho farnee. yeah. then came back to school. we had prefects' game day. i sprained my back. and i still played. a bit the crazy yeah. whoo. played rugby, soccer, netball and badminton. omg. i was screaming like mad. yeah. and to nobody's surprise i lost my voice AGAIN. my mum scolded me, she was like. you want your voice to be like your father's arh!? haha. okok. i'm sorry. but it's a natural reaction lah. ahah. yupyup. i used to think soccer was dumb cos 22 people had to chase one miserable ball. but hahahahahahahaha. yesterday we had like 28 people chasing the ball. and i tell you. it was SUPER funny. i didn't do anything at all. i just sat at the goal post and laughed throughout the whole game. and when the prefect headmaster mr ang kicked the ball and fell. hahahahahhahaha. i was rolling all over the grass. liew... SUPER funny larh. aiyo. yeah. and i pulled every possible muscle. haha. so fun. netball was crazy. i was the one running like siao. as usual. and the girl who was trying to pass to me, just kept yelling run, run, run! so peegy. ahha. and she was laughing and laughing. wahaha. i couldn't score a SINGLE goal. therefore our team kept losing. hahaha. fooine. but we still had a lot of fun. hhahaha. :D i whacked mr ang on the shoulder. oops. :P haha. who cares. whee. after that i went shopping at plaza sing with my friend. at first just to eat din. then we started walking around. haha. so yeah. i almost died when i got home. today's gonna be another long day. maaan. -dies-
ooh! found an orange guitar 135 i think.. but it's a bit small for me. found a few others around the same price which look reasonably sized for me. but not orange. man. i waaaant a guitar!! argh.. haha. :D alrighty. i better go. blog another time. ciao.
so they said.
Thursday, May 20, 2004
Oh baby its the way that makes me feel to see you smile. And the reasons they
may change but what i'm feeling stays the same.
nice. hm. yeah. whee. my bro's
trying to rap to black eyed peas where is the love. mwahaha. you should hear it. it's hilarious. but i can't laugh cos i've got NO voice. irritating. humph. haha. he's supposed to dance to the song for his school carnival. i sooooooo want to watch him dance. i think i'll laugh until i hit the ground. so mean right. but haha he's sooooooo cute. everyone will be laughing! hah!
going to watch the wade robson project. this dance thing. liew. should watch it. i watched it once. it's DAMN good. -slap- seroiusly. it's really good. he can dance like WOAH. cannot tahan. dance my first love. sigh. so sad.
going to battlefields tomorrow. like erm. what are we going to do there man. haha. we had soooo many free periods today. so cool yeah. anyway. yeah. we were building card houses thingies. yeah. haha. we built it i think 8 layers high. woot! i knocked the first one down. trust ME to knock it down right. sickening. haha. we were making up stupid song and rhymes today while playing bridge. whee. sho fun. i loss like practically all the games. my poor partner. somehow always turned out to be becky. haha. so dumb. so suay for her huh. haha.
got a talk aboout the issue. hm. sigh. so many problems. but i guess through all this i WILL come out stronger. i refuse to get so emotional over it. it's a waste of my energy. i know. the responsibility will be there. but not the emotions. seriously. no.
i like this period of time. i guess. don't know if i do or not. bleagh. okok. shall stop blogging still got other blogs to update before 9 then i'll run to the tv. haha. :D ciao.
so they said.
Wednesday, May 19, 2004
just got home from watching troy. why does the storyline seem sooo familiar. like i know exactly what happened? have i watched it before or something? liew. that's damn -slap- freaky. but i MUST comment about something. BRAD PITT IS SOOOOOOO DAMN HOT!? OMG. -SLAP- cannot tahan. omgomgomgomgomgomgomgomg. his muscles are HUMONGOUS. ARGH. i was dying. and he was BUTT naked. i finally understand the phrase butt naked. all they showed was his arse. but that was good enough. MAN. i was dying. i sooooo wanna touch his arse and bod.. hahahahhahaahhhaha. sorry. he's FREAKING hot lah.. omg. i was dying. have i mentioned that? i know. i hate repeating myself. but still. wah. this is an exception. gushing about guys is another matter altogether. seriously. man. WOAH!? *melts* i still can see his butt in my mind. pros of having a photographic memory. mwahahaz. cannot. cannot. i'm dying. his bod is to die for. AND. orlando bloom just proved himself a WIMP. haha. he's such a LOSER. i like don't know what's his name. hector? he's so nice, righteous, good. hahaha. i cried like mad when he died. my brother scolded me like 10 million times. cos i screamed and cried. i was so annoyed with him. ergh. haha. i was freezing in the theatre! deedum. i'm still thinking about brad pitt. i LOOOOOOOVE his arse. seriously. cannot tahan. i want to piiiiiiiiinch it. ohoh. the show was DAMN-slap- erotic. i was trying to cover charlsey's eyes. mwahaha. it was SO sick. hahahahahaha. and my bro's not nice to watch shows with. he doesn't allow me to scream and all that stuff. he's so not fun. and he thinks he knows the plot. and he gets is all wrong. aiyo.i totally can't wait for him to grow up lehx..
whee. today i was the pet crab for the dramafest. liew i was PURE orange. my hair my face. everything on me was orange. omg. i think it went quite well.. xcept they forgot their lines.. which was the funny part. ahah. sad. i think we kinda were to cover some of our mistakes.. hahaha. may.. stand a chance. but won't win.. haha. don't think we're THAT good. don't have much props either.. haha. but our costumes were good. the crab and fish costumes were real good!? hahahahah. SUPER orange. so nice. i had really funkay eyes. if i knew how to i would put the pics here. but unfortunately i'm too stupid to do that. sigh. it's really farnee. mwahaha. my dajie is soooo shuai!? hahaha. XD i think even if i were the prince which i didn't want to. yeah. i woudn't be able to match up to her level of shuainess. really. :S haha
i give up. seriously. i don't care. let it be that way. whatever man..
9 days. to 3 things. -, - and - yeah. whee. leaving in 11 days time. crap. i need to get to my peak. uh oh. no time to train lor. i'm dying. exams over STILL no time lor.
know what!? i'm SO pissed. so so so so so so so so pissed. i don't even know why i have to be it. i don't even know why you picked me. i don't know why you bother to ask me. out of courtesy? i don't care about your damned courtesy if you don't give me no respect. why the heck should i respect your decisions if you don't respect my stand. though i dont' like it. i still respect the teacher's decision. so WHAT if you're you. how have to earned my respect? you don't even give a shit about me. i'm just being used. used. used. sickening you know. what's the difference if i'm there or not? somebody tell me. the only reason you like me is cos. i don't care you if you like me or not. i don't care if you give me respect or not. i'll just respect you and like you as much as you respect me and as much as you like me. which obviously is rather little. ERGH!? seriously . i don't care who you are. we're all humans. no matter how old. so quit it. it's bl**dy annoying. just don't bother doing it at all.
gtg. ciao.
so they said.
Tuesday, May 18, 2004
bleagh. having tummy ache. just got home from school. had some sports leader award thing.. like erm. hahaha. :D yeah we have to plan some games' day thing for the whole sec 2 level next friday they tell us now! omg. haha. diez. yeah. can one! 15 of us planning confirm can wan lah. whee. yeah. hm.
you win some you lose some. i phrase which i've been trying to put into practise. like learning how to lose graciously in squash larh.. not just squash other aspects of life too. uh huh..
another phrase "you can't please everyone" THIS is something i NEED to learn. bleagh. so difficult. i guess i don't go around wanting everyone to like me. i don't suck up lah please.. so don't call me one. i never suck up one lor. hahaha. i really don't!! choi!! but i HATE it when people hate me. especially when we are working together. i cannot tahan. if you hate me. so be it. but still. don't show black face can. i'm trying. i really am.. i'm sorry. i really really really promise i didn't mean it. i'll try to make it up to you. man. this sucks. i'm really really bothered by it. we NEED to work with each other to make things possible. sigh. i've got nothing against you. i really don't. i never had anything against you. i've always just found it hard to work with you. but now that we are like this. we have to do it together. sigh. not pissed. where longsuffering comes in. i'll try again. haiz.
aiyo. come home. i'm sorry boi. cannot. i'm damn -slap- busy this week. damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn -slap x9- busy lor. i don't think i can take you out this week. man this is HORRIBLE. i've got a meeting for the planning tomorrow. plus basking during recess. crap. then after school got drama fest my parts not that big. but i've still got to be there. yeah. then thursday. got another meeting. yup. and i've got piano. and i can't bring him out. AGAIN. and he already changed his tuition time tomorrow. since when did i say wednesday. shit. some kinda jiejie i am. ARGH. i suck lah. can't even bring him out. sickening. hm. then i've got to go to taka to get the stupid receipts which i highly doubt we'll even be able to get. i don't care if i can't get the money back. not that i'm super rich. but i guess i have to pay for being irresponsible. yes mrs chan, i've learnt my lessson we won't buy such expensive uniforms anymore.. sigh. have to ask her whether i can get back to her on monday. can't by this friday. i'm sooo SUPER busy. ergh. i've got to bring him out somemore. ARGH. exam stress is over. and now all this. IRRITATING. sigh. patience. hm. i'm really dying...
argh.. how do i end up getting so actively involved in school stuff? i never choose one lor. i like being involved. but seriously. don't pick me for everything.. hehe. thanks. hahahahahahahahahahhaha. so funny. no lah. but it's fun lah. the sports leader award thing. even if i don't get the award. it is fun!! yupyup.
ooh. keeping myself busy helps me forget. wow. amazing. haha. :D
i love muai dajie. she rocks lah. she and i can laugh like siao.. seriously. really can make me laugh. the stupid jokes we crack and all that. haha. :D sho fun.. ow. pulled my shoulder muscle. damnit. -slap- aiyo. i'm on a roll with my damn -slap- again. sigh.
omg. i just realised i've yet to return jojo her cd. aiyo. i'm going crazy with so many things to do!!
haha. know dramafest which is tomorrow i'm the pet crab lah. yeah. annnnd. haha. i'm supposed to be an irritating orange crab. mwahaha. they totally picked the right person. i've got orange everything lah. orange hairspray, orange pants, orange top, orange socks, orange slippers.. hahaha. my character rocks. i don't talk. i'm just called "somimi" which i think is SUPER funny. haha. i'm going to have bouncy eyes!? mwahahaz. the thought of it is SUPER funny. whee. today we were singing our *cough* winning *cough* class song to all our teachers. haha. chinese teacher spoke to me about me failing chinese. haha. okok. i promise end of year. i'll get a b for chinese. sigh. sounds impossible. know what she said? she said that she believes i can pass. what the. pass only lor. ahha. i'm dead. i'm going to fail oral lor. haha. i speak to my chinese teacher in english. always have will always do so. i DO try to converse in chinese. just that i cannot lah.. hurhur -quotes sanjie and becky-
hm. you ah. i give up already. can't get along one lor. always having a heated conversation. don't know why. we don't quarrel just have a heated conversation. ergh. sickening. bleagh. i don't care anymore. i just like it when we're on okay terms with each other. when we can go crazy together. yeah. but. hm. it's ok. hm. don't care if you don't. yupyup. kk. going. ciao.
so they said.
Monday, May 17, 2004
today was an ok day. until NOW. like 30 secs ago. when i told you my average and that my chinese pulled me down. please stop nagging. i HATE it when you nag. cos you're just repeating yourself. i already know. seriously. if you want to nag about other things go ahead. i don't mind. but my studies. no. seriously. don't nag about that. please. it just totally pisses me off. sigh. i'll pull my grades up at the end of the year
i guess yeah. it won't be able to pull me all the way up. but it's better than nothing right. you just pissed me off. ergh. stupid. i failed my hcl. haha. can't be bothered. haha. i got 45.8% i think i got lowest in the whole cohort of hcl people. mwahaha. know why i failed. i wrote out of point for my compo. bleagh. got 28/70 lor. shit. haha. but. yeah. i passed my paper? 55/110 who cares. i passed. :P haha. aiyah. overall i've got a b average which totally SUCKS. i've never never never gotten a b average neither have i ever failed. sickening. sigh. but. yeah. i'm not sad. cos i know that what i got was what i deserved. seriously. i didn't study.. so obviously i'd get such shit marks lah.. hm. i hate results. everybody gets judged and crap. sigh. i hate being in my class. don't understand WHY i'm in this stupid class. ergh. all so damn smart. irritating. humph. heck. i give up. ergh. but yeah.
i was quite mentally prepared.i didn't cry or get angry the whole day.. until now.. hm. haha. woah. you mentally prepared me by just saying 4 words. WOAH. i think you're damn
pro lah. you're the best man!? seriously. you totally sparked off that mental preparedness thingy. thanks A LOT. if not. liew.. think i'd be doing it right now. thank God for wise and older ones to look out for me. my uncle rocks too man. haha. :D SHOOOO nice!?
yeah. today was super eventful! whee. yeah. getting back of results. haha. today also was class song lyrics inter-class competition. we did it over the weekend and taught the class the song today. mwahaha. and know what we WON!? oosh! that totally made my day. was screaming like mad. bart is was sooooooo farnee!? i didn't know like when to come in cos i couldn't tell which part to come in.. haha. so i just anyhow started singing in the middle of no where!? haha. and the guitars were out of tune therefore they just sat there and didn't play when we were practising with them. OMG. totally screwed. yeah. so i was singing SUPER loud to get everybody singing yeah. then aiyo. the 2nd verse i forgot the lyrics.. and again i didn't know when to come in. so i was like. oh CRAP. ahaha. and i ANYHOW started singing! hhahahahah. then my friend next to me started singing it again. so i just joined in.. haha. madness. my friends were like. you were super loud lah.. i was so scared. cos my class sang so soft?! they all froze man.. so sad. haha. and we forgot to break into parts at the end.. i think they forgot their actions too. haha. but it's ok! 2SY!!! YOU STILL WON! YOU'VE GOT THE BRAINS AND THE SPUNK! i think we're the first 2sy to be like this. a lot of teachers told us that they're so surprised to have a 2sy so lively and still so smart. hahahahah. woot. obvoiusly the noisy ones aren't the smart ones.. :P haha.
just cut my leg.. stupid printer i've scratched my leg on it 3 times. this time the scratch was like 6-7 cm long. and it's bleeding. super the pain man. haha. such a klutz sigh. stupidity. bleagh. oh yes the winning song:
it all begins,
it all starts
with a smile,
in your heart
so lend a hand
to help a friend
you'll never know
how far it goes
chorus:
and that's the way we like it
and we ain't gonna deny it
craziness and laughter
together we'll grow tougher
that's how it's gonna be
simply.. sincerity
i need you
you need me
we can't give up on each other
so take a step
and take my hand
you know you can depend on me
chorus
bridge:
show some kindness
show some lovingness
but most of all
be sincere
chorusx2
mwhahahahha. entitled simply sincere by dajie. haha. stupid girl didn't help! haha. :P yeah. eh. lyric writing competition. means lyrics competing. and we won *cough* who wrote the lyrics sia. *cough* tahahahaha. me and erjie! woot! we rock man! haha. can't believe that our composition actually won. but haha. credit also goes to the tune composed by angma, trang and minky. woot. it all came together nicely!? haha. :D yay. can't believe it! hahaha. it totally made my day.
then had squash. nice. played 3 best of 15. whee. can't belive it. aiyah. they were rusty. i bet they'll thrash me when they get back to their form. uh huh. it's nice being the underdog. i guess. haha. my last game i was laughing like siao lah. haha. omg. don't know what was wrong with the mrt today made me wait for like what 1/2 an hour!? haha. but yeah. today some people just proved to me that singaporeans actually have humanity. woah. seriously. haha. first. i wanted to hold on to the bar. then so i had to stretch over this lady's shoulder. poor lady under my armpit. then this nice aunty moved a bit though the mrt was SO full cos of the delay lah.. yeah and so i had space to hold on to the bar. thanks aunty! :D really appreciate it. then when i reached my station. yeah. there was this blind man. and he was like is this the way to the escalator. and a lady said yes. so he started prodding around with his stick. and he started to go off course. the nice lady. quickly ran after him grabbed his arm and brought him to the escalator down. then.. woah. i was really amazed at how he could get on and off the escalator with NO trouble at all like he didn't trip nor fall man. yeah then he got off. and then he tried to find the beeping place thingy. and ANOTHER nice lady said "come, i'll bring you there" so she grabbed his arm and brought him to the beepy place. wow. i was like. woah. singaporeans rock! kudos man! seriously. talk about standing out of the crowd. :D
"why are we fighting when it is so wrong" hm. you know what! i totally didn't think about it the whole day until now. wow. i'm forgetting! that's great. i've been trying for so long!! :D tahahah. :D i'm still SUPER confused about what i'm confused about. and what i'm feeling. haha. i'm mad. and i'm really really tired.
tomorrow got don't know what sports leader thingy. whaaat. i also didn't know i was picked. for what i also don't know. huh. like please. some sports leader award thing. the other time i went for some junior sports leader award. all i did was sit there for a million years listening to a talk!? wah. so boring!! haha. until 4.30 tomorrow. bleagh.
tahaha. yeah right. please.
i'm wondering about you
so they said.
Sunday, May 16, 2004
today's sunday! can you believe it!? so fast. i've been like waiting forever for this week to come and it's over so soon. time fliiiiies. was quite hyper. whee. but quite quiet leh. haha. surprisingly.. prolly cos i'm sooo tired.. yesterday talked on the phone until 1130. how wise of me. stupid girl. haha. sawah lah. but yeah. really woke me up. again.
but. yea. i'm thankful that this bleaghness didn't come until after exams. i feel like shaking aa's hand. haha. :P the difference is that you do. but i don't know. not that i don't. LIEW. was talking to rach.. woah. man. told her a lot. never opened so deep before. feel so vulnerable. feel so insecure. and worse of all CONFUSED!? ahah. i think we all agree that guys are sooo much trouble. *hi-5's sarah, jojo and rach* why? why? why? why must this feeling come? can't it not come.
emotions going against my will.
i know i can't. i know i don't want to. i don't want to ruin anything anyMORE. plus i'll just get deeper. i'm in soooooooo deep i don't even know where i am. i.. i.. i.. don't know. i don't know what i'm feeling. i don't know how i'm feeling. i don't know. i don't know. i'm sooooooo confused. having emotions are sooo tiring. uh! somebody save me. please. i don't know what to do. how does my faith come in now? bleagh. i'm going crazy. but it can't be what. i already decided that. therefore.. getting over it? i can't leh. i'm in sooooooooo deep. i guess it's not much of an excuse. but i seem unable to pull myself out. i'm reluctant too. i seriously don't want to. i don't want. why don't i want? why do you want? i never expected this to come. i never expected to face this. seriously. i need somebody. somebody else. would that help? maybe? but who? stop. can't stop thinking about it. about you. bet you can't stop thinking huh. what to do? am i being misled. am i blinded? can't believe we did the things which we did. just suddenly so wrong. so gross. seriously. like i've lost 'it'. well feels like i'm almost losing it. then when i look through the other set of eyes. i think it's alright. it's ok. huh.. do i mind? i don't know..do i or do i not. so confused.
hm. super tired. yesterday had conference call with sawah and rach. jojo lah. go out for dinner. :P haha. we were having "confession session" so many things i never knew. so sucky. haha. talk about an apt verse lor.. yeah. :D omg. i just realised that i've got school tomorrow. bleagh. getting all the results tomorrow. don't think i'm going to do very well. got a2 for science. crap lah. ergh. so low. stupid camille. can't even get an a1!? ergh. stress.
he rocks. he rocks. and so does he. whee! :D my uncle rocks. :D sho nice. =) so does unrelated. haha. inspiration. ht rocks too. woah. cannot tahan. haha. :D
ok. i'm really tired. *yawn* ciao.
so they said.
