Tuesday, July 13, 2004
BITCH. ergh. piiissed. i'm sick of bitchiness know. damn damn friggin sick of it. i thought i could put up with it. you all told me to forget about it. i tried. but i'll NEVER forget. over my dead body. liew. what if they said those stuff about you. it's SO hard to forgive. fish. i've been "ren"ing for soooo long. i made my decisions fair and square ok. i swear i wasn't bias AT ALL. the worse part was you said thank you. come on lor. don't say if you don't mean it. if i hadn't controlled myself. omg. i would have just been damn bitchy towards you know. i didn't. i tried SO hard to be nice you know. it was so tough. but i still did it. i think i have to continue doing it right. i'm just glad i don't look bitchy. haha!! unlike meimy hahaaaha. but yeah. there is a bitch in everyone of us lor. liew. i saw it in the one who i thought never would be lor. but she's not the last person on earth i would think isn't bitchy. but. i was a bit hurt when she said it. stupid girl. haha. but i still loooove you!! *huggs* though i DID want to slap you at first. anyway yeah. back to what i was talking about i was not i didn't say anything. i've never talked to you. i don't even KNOW you for goodness sake. i'm trying so hard to calm down. i feel like an explosive with a damn short fuse. but it's only when it comes to this aspect. BITCHINESS. like. whatever man. *rolls eyes* i don't roll my eyes unless i'm damn annoyed. hm. can you tell that i'm pissed, more than annoyed. you know what. i don't give no shitty damn now.
cam, you're an idiotic coward lah. ERGH. hm.
don't know why the heck i care if you don't.
grown colder. don't like the feeling. sigh. whee. just when i thought. yeah. i don't know what decision to make. sigh.
ARGH. i can't cool down. that phrase just replays itself automatically in my mind. annoying phrase. hahaaha. like the suriram ram ram song. which is actually rather catchy and amusing! weehee. yupyup.
NO FAIR! i was like the last to know. liew. no fair.i trusted you you know. but then again. you not telling me didn't affect us or me at all. surprisingly. yeah. cos i know. THIS kinda thing, i guess selected people you'll tell. like. *cough* ahah. i'm sorry. haha. i really think you'd be the last to know. i don't know. but i won't tell you first. yeah. prolly tell m first. don't know why. but i won't tell both of you as much as i trust you guys. then t then cl aka sj then both of you. haha. i GUESS (or not) you can keep secrets. haha. don't know leh. like you're always telling me stuff you're not supposed to tell.. haha. and i don't know who to trust now. ahaz. :D don't know if i can trust you. ahah. oh man. aiyo. please lor. i don't even tell you all what's happening now. haha. but yeah. by the time i do right. i think we'll all be seperated. so sad. i don't ever want to leave you guys. nono. and you're leaving next year. sigh. think i'll cry like siao when you do. don't leave. please. sigh. i hate it when people leave. i love secondary school. cos of the friends. sigh. haha remember. we're supposed to meet don't know how many years from now. with our kids!! only sj won't have right. for all you know she'll be the first one to have. and she'll have the most kids. wahahah. :D but it's rather funny to think of her as a mummy. ahah. :D actually know what. VERY funny. i think she'll just like leave them to the maid or something. anyway yeah. you certainly will never be the first whom i would tell. don't know why. ahaz. i looove our convos during recess. haha. i think they're damn amusing. haha. and dirtyy.. haha. THEY polluted my mind. ahaz. :D but i'll forever love you guys. i'm straight. hahaha.you idiots. haha. weehee. :D
haha. omg. our new seating arrangement ROCKS. though the initial one was better. where all five of us were sitting SOOO near to each other. ahah. whee. yup. now i've got m behind me. and t in the next row next to me. my old partner next to me. the CHINESE rep next to me. HAHAHAHAHAHA. sooo apt. and doggy infront of me. sijie too! haha. :D dajie quite far like. totally the opposite end of class. but never mind. haha. mrs choo wanted to change my place with gloria cos she was like "later you talk to t all the time" haha. then i was like NONO. I PROMISE I WON'T TALK DURING LESSON TIME! haha. anyway. then during her lesson when she came back, everybody was making so much noise. and. haha. i was like MRS CHOO! I DIDN'T TALK! I DIDN'T TALK! haha. seriously. i didn't. i was doing my work. haha. :P sho guai sia. mawhahah. anyway. my seat totally rocks though i'm seating at the same place. ahaz. yup. mm and sj are sitting like practically next to each other. haha. but at the other end of class. ooh and shondy is next to t. haha. so that rocks too! she's damn nice and sweet lah. she's my tissue paper provider. haha. XD so pweety. mwahah. :D i think she's quite. XD shhh. later everybody make fun of us. mm suans her cos she thinks i'm shuai. aiyo.. i'm NOT shuai. humph. go away. i'm straight. hahhahahah. sheesh. yeah. but thanks for the compliment. don't get that many. ahaah. it's worse than ever now. yup. shall be blind. uh huh. ladeeda. shall go. byee.
so they said.
