soliloquy.

Friday, July 30, 2004

swallowing anger.

nopenope don't understand.

wahlao. so everything's my fault lah. WHATEVER.

so they said.

goodness. izzit friday already!! the weeks are passing faster and faster. not that that's bad. but yeeh. time flies when you're having fun. so i'm having fun? haha. i don't know. but yeah. had a chinese test today. easy one. which i'm quite confident in passing. cos it's only one lesson and i memorised practically the whole lesson. woahh. yeah. whee. i failed the cloze passage though. wasn't lucky today. i felt weird like. i was purposely choosing the weird words which i totally don't understand instead of those i did. haha. talk about lousy intuitive. haha.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUSE!! ahah. it's my maid's berfie today. though i haven't wished her cos i think it's supposed to be a surprise thingy? i don't know. maybe i'll play happy birthday on the guitar. haha. whee. yupyup. today's a FINE. day. not that anybody would understand the double meaning of this word. but yeah. haha. i'm ok with it. haha. but yeah. haha. nia mind. originality like doesn't exist no more.. haha. stop copying meee. haha.

sigh. i hate it when people pms. and i don't like it when they just ergh. you know. i'm trying super hard not to pms. i'm still trying! :D see i'm all smiley. haha. cos i don't have THAT many reasons to be sad. i think some people just like being sad? but i hate being sad. cos it saps all my joy. haha. how IRONIC. goodness. but it's true. anyway back to pmsing. like there's no knowing when the person's going to bleagh at you. sigh. i try to understand. but sometimes. i hate it when people are so moody over trivial things. haha. like me. i just told my mum to "piss off" in a nicer way. cos i'm in a bad mood. i'm SUPER annoyed with the phone. PLUS the first thing she said to me was " i thought you had a lot of homework? thought you had no time?" seriously. that's SO not the question you want to ask me lah.

yesterday sucked. i TRIED to tell my parent's my problems amd what the heck. i just get 10 million lectures lah. and people tell me i should talk to my parents more. i don't understand why i should if they don't get the point of anything lah. they just keep going out of point. like the whole topic was about me socializing when that wasn't the frigging point at all. it's sooo DIFFICULT. thank goodness for handphones and mentors. or i'd just have gotten all depressed.. love my mentors.. whee. hahahaha. i recommend everybody get mentors. haha. they help A LOT. yupyup.

bro got bronze for napfa. -.- haha. he was quite happy. cos he thought he would be able to get 19 points. but he got e for standing broad jump.. haha poor fellow. can't jump.. haha. quite funny leh.. haha. but yeah. hahahaahahah. whee.

deedum. forgot what i wanted to blog. oh yeah. sigh. people should watch what they type on their blogs. sigh. prudence yeah. prudence. haha. i guess too much sincerity? haha. ok. that was SOOO off. hahah. 2sy rocks lah. whee. haha. :D anyway. yeah. *shakes head* stupid girl.. nobody was supposed to know except us. hahahahaha. anyway. deedum. yeah yeah.

better go now.. i need to mug like crazy. ARGH. that worsens my mood. and i refuse to listen to my mum's lecture later. cos i refuse to tell her anymore how i feel. humph. gtg. ciao.

so they said.

Tuesday, July 27, 2004

haha. goodness. that's VERY funny. haha. thanks tamooi. i'm now very embarrassed. haha. not really. haha. "just saying the name camille, forgives all sins" hahahaahah. whee. paiseh paiseh. who was the stupid person who told me wolverine was colin firth? hahaha. maybe i thought it up myself. too infatuated with colin that everybody looks like him. okok. it doesn't change the fact that i love wolverine. bart. okok. hugh dancy IS acting in ella enchanted RIGHT? wait until after the show IF i ever get to watch it. hope so. seriously hope so. cos i LOVED the book. gosh. it was SOOO good. ahah. anyway. i heard he's hot in the show. know what on the account that he's wolverine, i'll like hugh dancy too. haha. *sneeze*

yeah. man. had lots of stuff to blog. but then forgot. yeah. ooh. i remember. my teacher's been reading our blogs. what the. haha. heng my other one. which has guys pics all over it. crap. hmm. haha. ok nia mind.

whee. i haven't blogged about the messages. yup. i like the confidence one. honestly. i AM a person who has self-confidence. that much i can tell you. like. i don't know how i know. as in it's not overconfidence. though sometimes. yeah. it is. but. yeah. somtimes. my self-confidence goes so low.. and i can't depend on it anymore. i'm glad that i can have confidence in God. though it's going to be a while before i can find it. but i want to though. i want to be able to say that i trust in His will for my life. and that i'll submit willingly. like i said. i'm really quite a ren xing person lah.. haha. oooh. yeah. wilful. uh huh. and it's quite tough. cos i always want to do it my way, not God's way. guilty.. sigh. i really like the power station thingy. cos as a light bulb? rather not be one. i don't mind being a.. i was about to say bed.. hmm. o.0 yeah. sorry. yeah. i don't mind being a radio? hahaha. orange one!! joking. -.- bet everybody's face is like that. ahahah. anyway respect orange!! omg. i'm SUPER out of point. okok. baaack yeah. without the power station i can't "survive" in that sense. so yeah. i can't live without God, sorta found out the hard way. hm.

whee. learnt about joy during morning service. and how we have to constantly choose joy. yeah. been trying. sometimes pmsing makes it tough. but yeah. won't let it pull me down. uh huh. i know i don't like something. but yes. i still have to do it. and must as well do it with joy if i'm going to do it right. haha. :D my faith's supposed to bring me joy. i'm going to dig out that joy too. hahaha.

yup. whee can't wait for anniversary. i say this everytime christmas or anniversary is coming up. yeah. haha. whee. can't wait. actually i can. patience is a virtue!! haha.

whee. tomorrow's basket ball south zone finals. ahh. whee. sc bball rocks!! ahah. :D did i mention that our b div won nationals. tomorrow is against raffles. arhhh. we're going to support. it's compulsory. it's fun. duh. with my friends. EVERYwhere or anywhere we go it's fun. haha. man. my class rocks!! whee. yeah. we're leaving straight after recess. COS. our history is right after recess and our history teacher is the bball incharge. whee. yeah. hahaha. :D yay.. deedum. kk gtg. buhbye. thanks.

so they said.

Sunday, July 25, 2004

colin firth is so hot. i'm like sneaking at the tv cos my whole family is watching x men. and i'm not. yeah. cos i'm online. yeah. but they're wathingx men. and he's sooo hot. he looks soooo good as wolverine. loved him since. i watched pride and prejudice in p6. anybody watched? woah. i tell you. i loooooved him since then. i don't know why. but i'm just SOO attracted to him. seriously. ahh. -faints- can hardly breathe now. yeah. he looked soo good in love actually too. -dies- i always go for old men. but who cares. i love em. haha. tom cruise. saw his pic in church today. a bit slow but i got to see it anyway. so handsome. dies... haha. whee. yeah. haha. i haven't seen his bod before. shall go look for it. haha. superficiality. grinns.

two different responses. quite cool. VERY opposite.

how are people so strong. strong mind. i remember pastor preached that quite long ago. can't remember when. but yeah. it was quite impactful that i still can remember it. honestly. i usually forget messages after tuesday. but yeah. the one about these "things do not move me" and "power station, cables and light bulb" thing. these will kinda stick. i'm glad messages are starting to stick. yupyup. oh dear .it's quite late liaoh. i better go. sigh. was doing homework guai yeah. haha. kk. ciao.

so they said.