Saturday, August 07, 2004
sigh. so scary. why ah. haiz.
whatever can. don't know why i was pissed. dumbdumbdeedeedumbdumb. ergh. feeling all weird. and sad. and yeah. don't know.. bleaghed out.
haha. byeee.
so they said.
Friday, August 06, 2004
i'm OOBA tired. don't know why also. all i did was go out lor. ahah. think i'm just a peeg. mwahaha. today was like bleagh. actually quite fun. but no one went hyperly crazy. haha. so yeah. THERE WAS ABSOLUTELY NOOOO MOVIE to watch. so annoyed. the notebook is nc-16. wah lao. and i refused to watch village lah. sorry guys. haha. and i wasn't going to sneak into the other movies. humph. some naughty bunch of friends i have. yeah. we debated for 15 mins lah. watch this, then one of us would say don't want. or watch already. liew. in the end we watched connie and carla. we were trying to get the name right. hahaha. "coney and carla" ahha. no lor. neh copy. just no movie to watch.
lack of handsome guys in the show though it was HILARIOUS. laughing like siao ding dong lah. whee. they were quite gross. i was going to vomit. eew. haha. but it's quite nice. HAHAHAHAHA. connie and carla were SOO funny. whee. my ou xiangs!! nono. not really. i just looove funny people. the best part of the whole show was the part where ALL the "guys, girls" (don't know what to call them) were like all touching her boobs trying to figure out what she used to make her boobs so genuine. SO GROSS. hahahaha. i was practically crying lah. goodness. really really funny.. haha.
saw like so many people today. haha. obviously lots of sc girls as usual. saw practically my whole class. haha. yeah. and lots of church people. saw bent and his mummy. we both got a shock. at swensens.. WE ATE AT SWENSENS when we didn't have any money at all lah. liew. think we're so intelligent. i was tempted to get up and walk out. goodness. yeah. thank goodness sijie had atm card so she went to withdraw money for us. heng ah. wah. walk into restaurant expect people to pay for her. best. hm. omg. the irritating waiter. came up to us after our meal and said "Excuse me, sir, may i take this away?" -looks at me- ARGH. i didn't hear the end of it lah. and becky proclaimed herself my wife. oh GROOOSSS. she was like all darlingy and stuff with me. so sick can.
yup. looong day tomorrow.
i wish you'd reply. i wish nothing happened. argh. wtv.
*snores* falling asleep. nitez.
so they said.
Thursday, August 05, 2004
look away
Then I look back at you
You try to say
The things that you can't undo
If I had my way
I'd never get over you
It ain't the day
I pray that we make it through
Make it through the fall
Make it through it all
And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversationg
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
~
Have you forgotten
Everything that I wanted
Do you forget it now
You never got It
Do you get it now
Yea yea yea yea yea
Ah ah ah ah
Ah ah ah ah
Gotta get away
There's no point in thinking about yesterday
It's too late now
It won't ever be the same
We're so different now
Yea yea yea yea yea
~
think there's something more, life's worth living for
Who knows what could happen.
Do what you do, just keep on laughing
One thing's true, there's always a brand new day
I'm gonna live today like it's my last day
How do you always have an opinion
And how do you always find the best way to compromise
We don't need to have a reason
We don't need anything
We're just wasting time
Find yourself, cause I can't find you
Be yourself, who are you?
~
I cannot find a way
To describe it
It's there
Inside
All I do is hide
I wish
That it
Would just go away
What would
You do?
You do?
If you knew...
What would you do?
All the pain
I thought I knew
All these thoughts lead back to you
Back to what
Was never said
Back and forth
Inside my head
I can't handle this confusion
I'm unable
Come and take me away
I feel
Like I
Am alone
All by
Myself
I need to get around this
My words
Are cold
I don't want them to hurt you
If I
Show you
I don't think you'd understand
Cause no one understsands
~
Something just isn't right
I can feel it inside
The truth isn't far behind me
You can't deny
When I turn the lights out
When I close my eyes
Reality overcomes me
I'm living a lie
When I'm alone I
Feel so much better
And when Im around you
I don't feel
~
insensitivity. hm. don't care. argh. neh mind. GOSH. it's sooo late. i've still got school tomorrow. crap. ciao.
so they said.
haiz. can do nothing but sigh. screwed math and science tests. :'( boohoo. haha. but i passed chinese. oosh. i'm sooo happy. when lao shi announced no failures i was cheering and screaming like siao. whoooo. whee. :D yeah..
Y-M-C-A. *shake shake shake shake shake shake* haha. i came up with that dance. woohoo. best right. haha. it's SUPER funny. yeah. sijie rocks. goodness. the dance moves actually require you to be able to dance to do it. so yeah. i look retarded. shan't talk about the rest of my classmates who kneel on the wrong foot 4 times in a row. haha. she's super funny. she scolded me for wrong foot. called me stupid. (as usual) then yeah. haha. got all wrong. mwhaha. was laughing like crazy. anyway. yeah. i really appreaciate the amount of effort the whole class in putting in. like i ALWAYS say. 2sy 2004 rocks. seriously. don't think anybody can beat our class. woohoo. :D grinns. as in. the amount of fun we have. hello. we go NEWater plant also have fun. haha. whee. i love my class. :D
if i don't care i grow cold and hard. when i do. i just go all paranoid. it works on me. i guess that's something different for a change eh. can't stand you. i pretend to ignore it. though sometimes it troubles me. cos, i know you're really not. don't know if you're trying to be. quit trying if you are. :S maybe not. but you're certainly trying to make me realise. i already realise is.. but if it continues there would be so many of "us" cos. yeah it's just a beeg chain reacion. it's so freaky. it's annoying. don't like looking in the mirror so much.. haha. see my ugly reflection.. haha. and it's SCARY. i'm getting spooked now. haha. i pmsed in my sleep. read an sms last night. got super angry and then went back to sleep. think i'm plain weird. woke up this morning tad moody. haha.
they're going to watch the village tomorrow. i'm NOT going with em. haha. i refuse to scream, cry and scare myself so sillyly. haha. sillyly. haha. that's quite cool. sometimes i don't know how to react. i'm sorry.
i wish i was smarter know. like really. not that i want God to bless me more. cos i know i'm already VERY blessed. but. hm. yeah. i wish i weren't so stupid. like maybe get a bit higher marks. like an a1 average. sigh..haha. it's just me being lazy. wishing is harmless. cos they never come true.. haha.
back to the stars. back to your arms.
sounds like DbATE. uh huh. never. but. yeah. can't stop thinking of everything. tests aren't the only things distracting me. obsession is the hardest to rid..
so they said.
Sunday, August 01, 2004
i'm not talking to anyone nice now. therefore i shall just blog. and ignore the despos out there. who are getting on my nerves. GREAT. now my parents are back from johor. humph. no fair. just as i was about to blog.
yeah. anyway. whee. today sunday school lesson was. erm? didn't get anything. except for trying to figure out which was true and false. and t mary forgot sarah's birthday. i guess it was my fault for not reminding her. but i reminded t lee lee though sarah wasn't there during chimes. yup. :D haha. sorry sarah. next week we sing loud loud for you k. haha. ;) alright. yeah. anyway.
went for teen's worship today. :D haha. learnt about. how reaching out is not just to like far away places. but being concious and sensitive to the needs around us. i like that part. cos it's so real. i've tried sometimes. but some people always get in the way. like if we don't share who's going to share? woah. i still can't believe how God used me to do that. haha. pray i can do it again. :D haha. whee.
sang "within these walls" if i'm not wrong i chose that song for the choir gathering. and yeah. only min and i chose it. so i had to share.. ah. i was petrified. ahha. but yeah. i shared about how we had improved. and now. it's not improving anymore then what we did. hm. ok. :S can't do anything but pray. i love that song. my hair started standing after we sang it.
poor t chenkee. she claims she sounds like a frog. haha. except i wouldn't know. cos i haven't heard a frog talk. unless. like kermit the frog's counted. and if he is. she doesn't sound like him at ALL. and kermit can sing!! haha. like the rainbow connection. hahha. grinns.
anyway. during ypg t kenneth spoke. i like it when he speaks. -nods head- like i like the way he puts the message across. :S yeah. i guess. he was talking about sin. i think what stuck with me was the practical steps.. we have to do. and how after forgiveness we still have to continue fighting it. we heard this message about the "continuingity" after forgiveness during family camp.. yup. i still sorta remember it. haha. not really. very vaguely. goodness. but i still remember the self-discipline one from t kenneth haha. cos it's SUPER applicable in my life. yupyup. :D anyway. sin. sometimes i don't see my struggling with it. so yeah. i think i'm ok.. but i'm not.. get what i mean. yup. i know i'm naughty. :S i've almost stopped swearing!! :D haha. yay. whee. i must stop having all my bad habits. sigh. yupyup.
i'm being confused in ALL directions. like i thought it made me stronger. "but in sooth i know now why i am so sad" hahaha. nono. as in i've just grown colder. and grown harder. which is bad. how do you unharden yourself? :S i don't like being cold. i thought i let go of everything but all i did was bury it. get what i mean? yupyup. haha. i felt like a fire put out by a fire extinguisher when you walked in can.. seriously. sho annoying. whee. a percussion band!! whee i don't mind. haha. wheeeee.
yeah. woah. so SUAY can. i don't understand. if you moved and closer i would have jumped down and stand in between them. ergh. haha. i bet you were trying. too bad you're too coward. and stop doing that, cos i know what it means. and it hurts me? not really hurts. irks too. cos. yeah. it's just plain ignorance. (that's a pun) i was freaked out. think i melted a bit. sigh. i suck.
argh. you know i'm a sucker. i've been suckered SOOO many times. i used to get suckered like all the time. and i still do. cos. yeah. i.. hmm... shan't say it here. no. actually i don't. haha. see. i'm confused.
what's with the topic about hickeys and love-bites. they don't sound the same but they sound the same. as in. HAHAHAHA. the pronounciation is different. but they're explanations sound the same.. haha. :D that's quite a gross topic to talk about. karl's such a better topic to talk about. like. how hot karl is.. haha. :D
yeah. think i better go. tata. :D
so they said.
i'm suppposed to be blogging but i'm chatting. sigh. stupid girl. can't decide what to do. i think i'll chat. and blog another day. oh dear. i'm losing interest in my blog. nono. i'll just blog after all my *toot* tests.. sigh. hahaha. alright.
so they said.
