Saturday, November 20, 2004
going for wedding tomorrow. i'm dying. i've got NOTHING to wear.. arhh. haha. and i've got so little time to get ready.. uhoh. yayness. can't wait for choir. learning child of light. go t adelyn. mann she rocks!! yeah man. (X haha. so does mel! mel's sooo c*te she doesn't allow me to call her c*te cos don't know it's weird for someone younger to call her c*te. but she's OOBA funny. "mel always makes good points" haha. sooo funny. hahahahahaha. dance is sooo nice. but haha. i think us dancing it makes it look gross. lala. not really. man. we need to practise it a LOT.
haha. my lil round cousin is here. he's SOO cute i tell you. just that he doesn't like me. haha. glad he's grown out of the sticking to guys only thing. yeah. he looooves my mum. well that's cos she acts really stupid.. haha. but he's cute. haha. he hugged and kissed me. haha. i looove babies. (: dumdum. better go now. or i'll be late. taa.
so they said.
sigh. i wish i hadn't read it. i'm just getting numb-er and numb-er. erghh. anyway. if God is for me who can be against me right. siigh. just sooo hard to trust. ARGH. anyway. like. i still had everybody behind me. haha. not that i'm laughing in your face. but yeah. proves that so many people think they know who i am. everybody thinks the camille they know is the correct one. like. hello. it's seriously not my fault i rub everybody in different ways. anyway. yeah. i'm glad i've got tons of friends. you seriously can say whatever you want. you can think me the biggest bitch in the world lah. never mind. i'm glad God knows me for me. and not the way anybody else does. it's sooo difficult.. bahh. i'monestepclosertotheedgeandi'mabouttobreak.
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Friday, November 19, 2004
haha. blogger still not loading. harumph. ooba tired lah. napped for one and a half hours but my brother was making like SOO much noise can't sleep. having a headache. my wrist hurts quite bad. can't carry anything. pulle my right butt muscle again. and my left arm has a ball mark. like OUCH. haha.
do i need mental strength of physical strength. as much as i wish it was physical. it's not the case. mental strength is really. a headache lahh. i never have enough of it. one quarter is people's expectaions. one third is pride. one quarter myl strength. one sixth is God. that makes a whole right. haha. usually i don't think of this. i just know that i'm SUPER proud. i never can lose. ever since i was a kid. my bro and i used to play games and yeah. whoever lost would cry. and no i didn't cry the most. cos i won most of the time. but yeah. i've always been a sore loser. carried it with me until now. and yet the Lord still kept blessing and blessing and blessing. i didn't have many bad things happen to me in primary school. well, i did cry when i got my first band 2 which was quite funny. anyway. yeah. then came sec school. oh mann. i saw my pride waayy over my head. in squash all i wanted to do was win. okay so i did. i never lost. and when i lose one set i get very pissed with myself. goodness. then. i chose not to play so i just got worse. plus injuries and sickness. very bad. then i started losing. it was very hard to face. when i lose i'm always fighting back this lump in my throat. and the whole team isn't happy with my performance. especially coach. i don't know who i'm talking to. i'm close to doing it again. i'm not kidding. i'm just getting angrier with myself. and i don't know how to handle this stupid thing.
If I believe that I could do anything,
Could I spread my wings and say goodbye
So many people told me I couldn't win
But look at me now
Here I am in heaven's sky
And sometimes I say a prayer
Wishing that you could be here with me
Cos I believe
I believe in love, it's the best of everything
I believe in hope and the changes it can bring
If you believe then nothing can stand in your way
Just say, I believe
If hope's the house I wanna be living in
Baby, I've got one foot in the doorYes I do
All the years of waiting for your approval dear
Well I realised I don't need it anymore
'Cause I'm stronger everyday,
Now I'm strong enough to say, I believe
I believe in love, it's the best of everythingI
believe in hope and the changes it can bring
If you believe then nothing can stand in your way
I believe
It's a fact of life that we're all in the game
But it's still your call
But we all play it
Sometimes we win, sometimes we fall
But that's no reason just to give it up, cause after all
If you can't choose what to be
You can choose what to dream
And I believeI believe in love, it's the best of everything
I believe in hope and the changes it can bring
If you believe then nothing can stand in your way
Just say, (oh) I believe
-stephen gately
billy elliot.
how do you keep your dream fired. how do you get up when you're so tired. i'm frustrated. -tears out hair- thus the lack of it. *evil stare* kaykay.
go everybody having exams!! haha. i'm being encouraging not rubbing in that i'm having holidays. haha. grinns. ok. whoops. anyway. all the best peeps.
i was just about to say how adorable my brother is. but i've changed my mind. he's SOO
damn kaypoh. erghh. idiot lah he..
argh. i'm going to be late for dance. oh wait. i'm going with rach. i'll DEFINITELY be late anyway. hahahaha. ok. sorry. just kidding. (: taa.
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Thursday, November 18, 2004
you know how long i haven't been online or touched the computer. and. hahaha. i'm super exhausted from holidays. i go back to school everyday. bleagh..
ahaha. our dance is hilarious. it's sooo tiring. but it's really fun. (: mummy man can dance real good!! haha. (: ooba cute lahh. super funnnyyyyyyyy. dumdeedum.
i'm just too excited to be online. can't think of anything to write. (: i'm trying to listen to music. guess what. speakers aren't attached. argh. how intelligent. nothing to sayy. aiyo. always like that. haha. incredibles is nice. it's the first movie i've watched. i've been THAT busy lah. anyway. i'm angry cos bridget jones the edge of reason is nc16. and what. i'm only 14. and we can't watch it why. cos people sleep together a lot in the show.. argh. i want colin firthhh. and hugh grant.. sighh. love em.
KAIWEII. is the ultimate. his bod is like -melts- NO HE DOES NOT LOOK LIKE ANYBODY! please. he's too handsome to look like anybody.. kk
gtg. taa
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