soliloquy.

Thursday, December 02, 2004

good day.

lala. so sad. can't go out with prefects for dinner. :'( thought i had nothing on.. sigh. nevermind. yeah. anyway. finally can blog. was watching singapore idol yesterday. and i was screaming sooo much for olinda. did anybody see those girls with the olinda t-shirts. man. i soo badly want them. haha. i was crying when oli was singing. and dick is SO funny. haah. (: funny song.

oh goodness. i cannot stand people who type english and chinese together. as in speak ok lah. i guess. i do it sometimes. but ALL the time. like english is a hybrid. which is not. haha. seriously can't stand people who can't prounounce words properly. hee. it's VERY funny. and i can't stand people who can speak chinese very well. i can't even talk to the taxi driver in chinese LAH. ahha. (:

anyway. yeah. i really really really really really really want to watch bridget jones.. the edge of reason. :'( i'm SUPER sad LAH. humph. nc16. i'm never going to stop harping on it. cos i can't watch. it. it's not fair. it's not like we don't know what sleeping around is right. please. argh. bah. anyway. yeahh. (: somebody bring mee.. humph. haha. i finally bought the vcd. for bridget jones' diary. and i just kept replaying the part between darcy and jones. haha. darcy is the SEXIEST name alive. and colin firth can kiss soooo well. -swoons- okay. he's no. 3 on my swooning list. hee. hugh grants alright. but after a while. i really think he's a big fat jerk. but i loooved him in love actually. ooh. but colin firth was there too. and i loved him there too. arghh. hahaha. he's the perfect man. annnd. his accent is the BEST. ahah. i'm dying thinking about him.

going to school after this. haha. omg. it's 2 dec. know what. it's ALREADY december. i'm going to be sec 3. i canNOT believe it. bother. if i don't have time to blog tomorrow, tomorrow is brendan fraser's birthday!! woot. haha. he's george from george of the jungle. they guy who replaced him in george of the jungle 2 was a ripoff. yuck. anyway. he has the body of WOW. and yupp. his birthday is on the 3 of dec. everybody remember!! ((:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRENDAN FRASER TOMORROW. he turns 36. haha. (: just nice for me eh. ohoh. colin firth is 40 plus. but who CARES. hee. yupyup. shall go now. taa. camille ann firth. grinns.

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Tuesday, November 30, 2004

figured out parts.

and i'm back. i tell you. i'm so bored. i've got nothing to do. haha. got training tomorrow morning. humm. and yeah. going for dental tomorrow. ONE MORE WIRE. yesh! woot. haha. can't wait. 9 months of braces. haha. not much pain though. my plate was more painful.. ahah.

ahh. youth conference draws nearer. and i'm starting to lose track of days. actually not really. usually right. holidays, i lose track of days. which mean this is a bad sign. i'm not losing track of days which means i'm not having proper holidays. anybody can tell i'm not. siigh. but yeah. trying VERY hard not to complain. (:

ooh. christmas. i hope more friends turn up. i don't know. i know we're putting in looots of effort for christmas. but sometimes i wish that it'd be a musical more than what we ALWAYS do and is soooo expected. like. actually do a musical. there IS difference between dialogue and narration know.. maybe. it's just me. but i sometimes wish it'd be just that much nicer than it'd be a LOT more evangelical. or are we not "evangelisinging." i don't know. yeah.. bum.

I'M SOOOO SAD. i'm missing my class's christmas party cos of christmas concert. :'( *sob* our last party and i can't goo. arghh. and it's farewell to all those leaving. uhh. i'm ooba sad. 2sy. i love you sooo much. i'm so sorry. haiz.

haha. we finally got a proper computer table, so now, i won't be putting my feet like on the speaker or sticking them into drawers.. ooh. nice song!! it's called indescribable. THEY JUST PLAYED WE CAN MAKE A DIFFERENCE. oh. wrong song. i'm soo paranoid. humm. haha. was looking through my friendster testimonials. :'( i miss this year SO much.

i loved 2004. 2SY. (: -sighs- i'm in love. haha. i love my friends. seriously. lala. i better go soon. have to wake up early tomorrow. hee. tomorrow. tomorrow. -sneaky grin-

lala. buhbye.

p.s. they're actually playing the we cab make a difference. it's NICE. i like jaci val.. however you spell her name. one speakers not working. hum. feels as if i'm one ear deaf.

so they said.

need a little more room to love.

okay. that was weird. but i looove the song! thanks sarah. ((: haha. spaghetti's for lunch. mhmm.

i feel like ranting. argh. i've got a VERY extremely bad attitude. or in other words attitude problem. seriously. it's the bitchiest side of me. and i HATE it when my attitude comes out. but somehow time and again. i just keep succumbing to it. i don't know WHY. it's very pissing to see it emerge. my face black like anything. it's quite scary. but my attitude problem isn't very small you know.

my brother got 3 phone calls. you have NO idea how irritating it is. he's not IN for goodness sake. stop calling.

my thumb huts bad. stupid squash racket grip. anyway. my attitude is NO different from any pai kia in school. seriously. it's those you just want to slap. erghh. it doesn't come out all the time. in fact. in comes out quite rarely. but i'm still pissed that it actually comes out. bah. AHH. stupid braces ulcer. is not helping. and my father's telling me i've got a blood clot on my knee. uh oh. haha. great. i've got weak knees and ankles.

i just sneezed. ouch.

i think i was never born to be a sports person. just trained to be one. for example. i'm not naturally talented in squash it's just traning. i think i was made to take on the form of whatever needs to taken. as in. HAHAH. reminds me of jack-jack. no. like. in primary school i was in choir and now i'm in squash. how off is that. haha. yupp. and if i had join badminton, i'd be in badminton too. haha. so yeah. WHAT. i'm not good in anything. humm. then again. i could be good in anything if i just trained in that right. ARGH. so confused. i don't know what i'm fighting for. nor do i know what i'm traning for. all my reasons vanished. actually. my reasons were so faint they didn't make enough of an impression on me thus it's gone.

how come it's so hard to find a reason to play. as compared to singing or dancing. haiz. not real enough. make it real.

come on cam. wake up.

what i'm doing with my life. i don't know. bah. shall go now.

going to see you soon. grinns.

so they said.

Monday, November 29, 2004

martin henderson.

bride and prejudice ROCKS. it's exactly the same as pride and prejudice. ahah. i looove it. haha. i was like. eh. they're going to replace MY darcy with some weird person ah! and now i'm in love with himm. haha. ((: we were squealing in the theatre. i'm so embarrassed by how bimbotic we sounded. haha. but he's really SOOO hot. -melts- i love him mann.

aww. that was so recent and still. -heart sinks- i guess i don't like. but STIIIILL. aii. all the more i won't tell anybody else. losing more chances. talk about pressurising. not good to have chio friends. haha. haiz. never good enough.

today was FUN. was doing para para. first time in my life. gosh it was HILARIOUS. stephy was pro. joanne. OMG. ahahahahah. she kept losing. hahahahaha. so funnyyy. ddr was FUN. jojo sucked at it again. aiyooo. stephy and i were having a workout on it. it's ADDICTIVE i tell you. haha. and we were soo pissed cos we couldn't do the butterfly song thingy. ehh. i got a B know. pro sia. ANND. i got i think 84 combo. woot. HAHAHA. serious. and we were next to the glass lah. can you imagine how embarrassing. haha. thank goodness we were in jurong where absolutely nobody goes. ahah. ice skating was fun too. stephy fell twice. ahah. i gave up trying to skate backwards. and jojo was trying to molest little kids and i was encouraging her to. ahha. talk about good friends and influence. HAHAHA. so funnyyy.

we ate unfresh sushi at edo sushi 10 plates plus jojo's very hard lemony-orangey ice. haha. yeah. it's called sorbet. have i mentioned jojo will never be a good police woman. she couldn't even shoot one person dead do you know that. tsktsk. haha. she was jumping up and down.. haha. ahha. jurong is FUN. but the toilets stink. and the vcd shop sells only chinese vcds and the only english vcds they sell are phua chu kang. 0.-

bumbumbum. right. think i shall go now. forgot what i wanted to blog. except i'm trying to find out if martin henderson is attached. hee. (:

i'm not telling anybody else mann. seriously. haha. go figure.

so they said.

gooood morning.

no training. yesh. haha. anyway. i'm sitting here on the chair, in front of the computer wondering if rach and jojo are awake. cos i have absolutely no clue how to get to the skating rink on my own. we're going to watch bride and prejudice i think. haha. it was supposed to be a sunday school outing. for t hwee cheng's class today. and t mary's class bumped along. haha. yup. BUT. t hwee cheng crashed a car or something so she's not allowed to take leave and has to do paperwork today. so we decided to go by ourselves. ((:

right. my bro dumped my cousins here and they're playing street fighters on ps2. and soon i'm going to leave. so yeah. they'll be alone at home. and the older cousin will be going to school. leaving the cheeky little PUDGY one here alone. oh deeear. and today's a bad day. everything i've drunk in on my shirt, everything i've eaten is on my shirt too. humm. bad day for eating. haha.

matt, your butt is so hot.

haha. funny funny funny. the day i found you. haha. ((: there's 4 now. i just realised that i haven't seen for such a long time. :'(

lalala. i think i'll go really strum my guitar. crap. i washed my guitar pick. i think i'm so intelligent sometimes you know. taa.

so they said.

Sunday, November 28, 2004

this song is dedicated to benjamin tan something something. haha. (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BENTAN
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.

hahaha. have a great one hour left of being high and doing whatever you want yeah. stay naggy and irritating. you nice nice nice uncle. haha. (: next year there'll only be 199999 who won't wish you happy birthday cos. i WILL! haha. (:

so they said.

NKF donation card.

girls bear grudges more than guys do. i think that's like WAY true. haha. don't you think so. yeah. i still can remember almost all the scoldings i've gotten from people who aren't my parents. i remember the first one was in primary four. i forgot to buy my mental sums book. i got scolded so bad. i cried. actually. nono. it was just that i was so angry with myself for forgetting. and my teacher scolded so yeah. i cried. it was my first scolding. haha. and i was so depressed cos i wanted to be a prefect. and that was the year for nominations. haha. yeah. anyway. i got one more major scolding in primary school which i totally learnt my lesson cos the SAME teacher scolded me REEEEAL bad she was yelling at the top of her voice. in front of so many people. i was trying so hard not to cry. THEN. ohoh. i was p6. thennn. yeah. i went back to class a bit late. then the chinese teacher saw something wrong. so she came up to me and i WAILED. ooohmygawsh. i think even now i'd do the same thing. when i mean scold right. i mean like the person is right in front of me scolding me specifically. not a group of people. yeah. haiiiz. horrible memories. i don't hate the teacher. oh and i wrote to that teacher and i got a lecture.. teachers. haiiiz. out of point. but i'm ok with it now lahh. yeah.

what i hate about scoldings is that it reflects badly on your parents cos they think that you're not well brought up. argh. PLEASE. that's ultra crap. i don't know why it's my parents' fault when IIII made the mistake. irritating.

anyway. trying not to bother too much about it.

not fair how come you got to see. i didn't. humph. haha. (: guess it's dying down but i'm quite sure it'll go up up up. some time soooon. uh huh. hee. forever and ever, you'll rock my socks. (pun intended) HAHAHA. it's so depressing. i'm going to hunt high and low to find it lahh.

oh. i just got a letter from nkf. haha. i forgot i'm supposed to help collect donations. so piggy. the lady called me. and as she was speaking to my mum. i was eavesdropping. naughty i know.. haha. but i couldn't help it. i was laughing so hard when she passed the phone back to me. i had to try sooo hard just to talk. haha. seriously. anyway. at the end of the letter they said. ignore this letter if you have already sent in your donation card. wouldn't they know who has sent back the card. then don't need to send the reminder letter right. aiyo. waste paper. okayy. so we're collecting money for them to waste paper asking people to ignore the letter. hee. i'm being cheeky. yeah. ((:

pastor mitch scared me with the sneezing thingy today. haha. and i just sneezed twice. means somebody's thinking of mee. wonder who. grinns. (: oh sick. dont' wonder who.

know what. i liked this month's messages though i missed the first weeks one. i like the despair to dependance one. it's really feeling as if i'll take forever to change my despair to dependance. it's VERY tough. and it truly was a new insight for me. seriously. and the thorn in the flesh was nice too. am i prepared for what might come my way. draws me back to the lesson of "give me this mountain" from job izzit? i can't remember. but i know that was the title. and i remember laughing at it. yup. anyway. makes me think. like. i've never been ready for anything that comes my way. and everything that came all i did was run. run run run. bah. ok. but he didn't say how to prepare.

he just said to prepare. humm.

ooh. conference. usually i don't exactly look forward to conference. as in i do get excited like one day or a few days before conference. can't help it, i've got VERY slow reaction. haha. yeah. but i'm ALREADY excited for conference. especially for the messages. something which is very VERY real to me. EXTREMELY real.

sorry to bother you eh.

oh man. child of light was horrible today. haiz. we weren't even singing. i think we were the WORSE item lahh. haiiz. :S feel baaaaad. aiyoooi.

i'm blasted out of tune.

i should stop putting my foot on the speaker haha. it makes the music sound weird. hahaha. yayness. right. better go sleep. going ice skating tomorrow. can you imagine how ungraceful..

OOH. pastor said YES to the dance wooot!! now all we have left is the reprise. and it isn't very little. ok. so we solved a bit. haha. umta. umta. haha. (: anyway. yarh. I FOUND GLITTER ON MY FINGER. haha. which is from the skirt thingy. haha. yupyup. shall go now. going to lie on my bed and stone. yay. taa.

so they said.