Saturday, December 11, 2004
testify to love.
For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love
I'll be a witness in the silences
when words are not enough
With every breath I take
I will give thanks to God above
For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love
-avalon
love that song. love it love it love it love it.
i don't know what's wrong with you. why do you have to be so like that? i already have no voice, and you keep shouting at me. why. i didn't do anything wrong. why do you have to be so sarcastic. you tell me. i don't understand Lord. i'm trying so damn hard to control my temper. cos it'll only make things worse. but it hurts SOOO bad. what's wrong with sending me to church or giving a lift to my friends or coming to fetch me. you say i think you owe me your life. well, you're not much different, you think the whole world owes you so much. come on lah. i sit in aunty lai heong's car like practically EVERYTIME i go to and from church. and you complain that i ask you SOOO many times to send my friends here and there. either you're SUPER calculative or got REALLY bad maths. that contradicts. but yeah. argh. come on lah. they don't even KNOW you've got a new car. can you imagine how many times they've sat in your car. i knew they changed their cars. and i sit it in more than i sit it anybody else's car. sometimes i feel aunty lai heong is my second mummy. i'm NOT comparing her to you. i bet you'll just kill me if you thought i was comparing her to you. i'm NOT. i just don't understand what the big problem is with the sending us here and there. if i had a car, i would drive myself and my friends everywhere. you think i won't send charlsey if i could. you think i won't send you around if i could. sometimes, i don't even bother asking you. cos all i get is a yelling response. siigh.
kay. i better go now. later going to get yelled at again. shall go. ta.
so they said.
Friday, December 10, 2004
CAMP.
well. it's over. and naturally. i once again lost my voice. can't believe we have to sing on sunday. and my throat is dying. haha. (: anyway. lots of experiences. i'm OOBA thankful for camp. i won't type everything i feel/felt. don't want to. but i really want to thank those who made the camp possible. like our handsome commandants who are running all over all the time. wow. i take my hat of to 'em. then the officers. they rock. ESPECIALLY michelle chan! woot. haha. vespers teacher. grinns. (: and those who i could sms in the middle of the night. thanks. (: pastor mitch for speaking to us and cracking us up. and also bearing with our nonsense. and thanks for taking the time to talk to me. (: yarhh.
anyway. got to talk more to my batch guys. as uncomfortable as it was. ALWAYS is. thanks guys for doing it all the time. yah huh. anyway. some still as dao as ever. lah. bish. so piggy. but the rest so nice. some people, i SERIOUSLY didn't know were so nice. hee. OOH AND NIGEL ROCKS MY SOCKS! WOOT. haha. he's so funny. ((:
i wannt. humph. haha. kk. shall go now. don't know WHAT is happening tomorrow. bum. taa.
so they said.
