Friday, January 14, 2005
embrace all that i am.
i have NO idea what that means. anyway. haha. i didnt' know i finished at 4 today. EARLIEST this whole week can. anyway. there's training now. but i didn't know that i finished at four i thought i ended at 6. THEN. i didn't bring my traning stuff. bah. how smart can i get. anyway. i need to take a break before i break.
okay. i've become so numb. i don't really care you knoww. i don't tell you lots of things, maybe cos i don't want to hear your nagging. i KNOW it's for my own good. but you DON'T have to rub it in riiiight. sigh. haha. anyway. i don't want nagging from you either. like i'll get really pissed.
invest practise was fruitful. casting crowns is nice. haha. voice of truth. tiring. i was hopping around and singing my lungs out in a long piece of purple cloth which was draped all over me. haha. miss seah helped me. grr. mrs fern called me bodo today cos i didn't get into 3sy. like. okay. i was really happy that i saw her. so yeah. wasn't THAT upsetted. but now my stupidity is confirmed. it's comments like these which really REALLY drive me. mumph.
the clouds are moving. this morning the clouds were FLYING. they were going super fast i was getting dizzy sitting on the ground. haha. and lishan and i weren't paying much attention to the prize winners. hee. ((: anyway. she's my evil twin. haha. only because she's a evil person in the invest musicale thingy. haha. she's soo cute. OMG. jean is SUPER cute. i loooove jean. lalala. haha.
retainers hurt. seriously. ooh. the weekend is here. can you believe it! this week passed how fast can. okay. i guess that's good.
om's sooo fun. haha. (: we were having soo much fun. LAAAA. sick. i miss 2sy SO much. bah. when we'll talk again. haha. i don't know. sorry.
There is no problem too big,
God cannot solve it
There is no mountain too high
He cannot move it,
There is no storm to dark
God cannot calm it,
there is no sorrow too deep
He cannot soothe it.
If He carried the weight of the world
upon His shoulders,
i know my brother that He will carry you.
If He carried the weight of the world
upon His shoulders,
i know my sister that He will carry you.
Lord, please carry me
through it all.
alrighty. better go.
so they said.
Thursday, January 13, 2005
milo. milo. milo.
okay. what's new. i'm dying in school. WATCH me die.
think it's going to happen again. sometimes i tell myself i don't mind. but there's something holding me back. i don't know what it is. it's just stopping me. and you're an idiot. HAHA. no lah. don't blame you as much. but yeah.
i AM stupid.
sigh. anyway. i can't wait until invest is over. then i've got om. lala. we want to go to america!! whoot. think can? don't know. aiyah. i seriously can't let go of 2sy o4. like argh. i miss everybody so much. mrs chooo! i miss youu!
today my mummy asked me a REALLY good question, she asked me, which part of me wasn't aching. HAHA. i thought that was a fantastically intelligent question. woah. haha. (: i got retainers. sick. haha. (: i have to speak slower and nicer and prounoucier and stuff.
lalala. i didn't do it LAH. everybody thinks i did. 2sy just rocked on its own. woot. i'm holding on soo tight.
i don't want a thing. i just want to not feel stressed and wearied and weighed down. i wish i weren't. :'( it's just too much. Lord, whatever You ask. if You think this is okay for me to handle, then so be it. just means no more computer, no more guitar. no more piano. :'( everything's goinggg.
you're gone too. when i need you. or somebody. anybody. please. :(
better go back to the books. siigh. bye.
so they said.
