Saturday, January 29, 2005
selfishness.
bumm. anyway. haha. it's like one month gone ALREADY. that was fast. and. after one month, i still haven't gotten used to everything and letting go. and worst of all. i don't feel any better. especially not with stupid hurtful comments which are hurled at me and which replay in my mind over and over again. it really drives me the wrong way. siigh.
hold God's hand and take flight. (:
lalalalalalala. it's the weekend. can't believe i survived another week. haha. thanks Lord. seriously.
gtg ta
so they said.
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
how wonderful life is now you're in the world.
i guess. i'd be fine without you. but i just feel better when you're there. (: thanks so much. really. darn. sometimes i really want to go back so that i won't have to hurt so much. that You'd just take away the pain. siiigh. it keeps floating back to me. bah. neh mind. okok. haha..
The smile on your face
Lets me know
That you need me
There's a truth
In your eyes
Saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says
You'll catch me
Whenever I fall
You say it best
When you say nothing at all.
-ronan keating
yeah yeah. not much to blog. another time then. taa. (:
so they said.
Monday, January 24, 2005
don't give a d***
please LAH. i'm really quite sick of it. just move away a bit cann. seriously. STOP IT.
i hate captain talk. i hate prefect talk. UGH.
i'm suffering from lack of seeing syndrome. not really. haha. i DON'T KNOW. i'm too annoyed to be happy now. humph. seriously. please please please. i don't want. i don't want i don't want.
@(&*)$&((#)*%^)*@)#(@#&@#&**&)#&*#@&(^$(^%)@((!$)
ARGH!!
i KNOW it's my fault. i KNOW. it's just me. but it's so hard to let go. it's so hard to give it to You.
"trying to hold on to everything that i call mine"
as much as i laugh or am laughed at. can anybody see. can anybody understand.
"When you look in the mirror of His heart.
you will see just how special you are.
For you'll find beauty and glory,
His destiny.
He will show you
His purpose
to be more that you can be
He will give you wings
And you'll soar to the sky
If only you can see your life
through His eyes. "
-pl musical
but i see no beauty, no glory, no destiny
the uselessness is overwhelming. i just feel so freaking under don't know what. like shortchanged. but i'm shortchanging myself, Him. ESPECIALLY Him. i don't deserve it. i don't want to be it anymore. i don't think i'll ever be good enough to be. PLEASE. shoot me. please. somebody shoot me or if you know how to drive just knock me down with a beeg car.
transferred pain.
abstract of reality. i have NO idea what that means. i just thought it sounds cool. my geog teacher said it. haha. cos i asked a question which stumped both of them. couldn't answer. okay lorr. ask me go and find out myself.
siiiiigh. how long more. how long.
so they said.
