some love.

Saturday, February 19, 2005

love never fails. something to think about. something to work on. 1 cor 13 thingy. this week was oooohk. however too much emotions. you have NO idea how many times i thought of everything. ok. so that was sneaky. siigh. what am i doing. i don't know. the whole week i was thinking of everything. damn it's heavy.

i'll try to love. :S

thanks for the birthday present. you really didn't have to. like hello. it really would have been nicer if you hadn't told me that you weren't happy with me. you have no idea how much i tried to think and decide. sigh. please don't judge me. please don't. somehow i want it. yet i don't. aiyo. which prefect doesn't want. you're not making sc a better place for me. now i'm just going to be scared of you like forever.

ANYWAY. doesn't the whole world just knoww. don't you all know every single thing. it sucks you know. i also don't want to go. but i don't want my parents to ask, though i think they ALREADY know.. i'll really get VERY annoyed. it sucks. you really think i want to go?

now i don't have both.

there's just you. [please don't abandon me, yet, not now]

ahh. it's driving me crazy, honestly i don't understand how what little you said to me affect me so damn much. why did you have to say that. mrang. why. okay. i guess i understand what you said. but i don't understand. i'm sorry i have disappointed you. i probably screwed all my chances in this one decision right. sigh.

somanydecisions
idon'tknowwheretostart
doigowithwhatmyheadtellsme
orlistentomyheart
standinginthemiddle
i'mtrulyoverwhelmed
byalli'mtryingtohandleallbymyself.

no. i'm not angry.

so they said.

Tuesday, February 15, 2005

man. i'm like how confused. haha. i've never been that daring. crap. WHAT are you doing cam. sick. shoot me. BAH. anyway. aiyoo. headache. my priorities are the most screwed on earth. siigh. alright. better go study and think. darn. stop dragging.. uhhhh. ta.

so they said.

Sunday, February 13, 2005

i feel like crap. too much to feel.

i'd rather rest forever in your arms
i'd rather stay here than go
but i know i should leave
as i sit here helpless.

so they said.