Thursday, April 14, 2005
i don't care if you don't love me.
HAHAHA. stupid phrase. anyway. tomorrow's the beginnnign of om competition. my heart pounds. KABUM KABUM.
cam. that was a STUPID move.
anyway. i'm super super annoyed. do i really really need to share EVERYTHING with you. GRR. i'm sick of it. forget it. aiyah.
people act sooo well sometimes you know. i REALLY can't stand it. bleagh. the reasons why i don't like being a girl. you feel really bad when you're left out. you feel horrible whe you're not loved. we're always comparing. aiyah. there are a LOT of things. hahahaha. but the worst is that we're soo bi***y. SUPER. i hate that about girls.
om's going to end in 2 days time. yeah. i'd be relieved. but.. sigh. i won't get to talk to you all as much anymore you know. i'm going to REALLY miss you. i suck at letting go. i just wanna go back to the way things were. when everybody was treated nice. i really wanna go back.
ihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyoustoppretendingasifeverythingisfineyouknowitisnotistillhateyouidonotloveyounomorestopitiamsosickofitjuststopitstop.
so they said.
Monday, April 11, 2005
He is exalted, my King is exalted on high. lalalalala.
i had a lot of things to post. but i forgot. hahahahaha. anyway. this year is passing SO fast can. i really want things to slow down a bit. OMG. like nationals is one week from being over. i'm freaking out. what if i can't do it. what if it's my fault that it crumbles. what if i crumble. nonono. the Lord won't let me crumble. yay. He won't. (:
yeah. squash c div won today. man. i'm soooo proud of them. i feel lousy and bad though. like. argh. "you already lost it last year, do you want to lose it again" THANKS ah.. really needed that to motivate me very much.
lalalala. okay. nothingness. i want the many cds i want.
so they said.
