Saturday, May 14, 2005
i don't give a DAMN no more. I HATE SEC 3. I HATE BEING 15. what's wrong with hanging out with my friends. i feel better with them then with you. ANYTIME. grr. why can't everything go back to last year. mrs choo i miss you so bad. lineclub, dajie, erjie, i miss you all soooo bad. everytime i see mrs choo along the corridor, i just going up to her and crying. every minute i spend with you guys i treasure so badly. i've never felt more alone ever than now. it's even worse than last year. everything's wrong. why can't i do more than one thing at once. such a loser. it's either this or that. WHY CAN'T I DO IT. freak. i'm failing everything. i've hardly got any a1s. everybody's disappointed in me, everybody's scolding me. wth. i feel so useless LAH. seriously. there's no commitment anywhere. i am commitment phobic. i really REALLY am. i'm sick of it. stubborn ass. ihateitihateitihateit. so much for everything. i don't feel like going anywhere but staying in my room. just leave me alone. i won't die yet. oh. have i mentioned i hate tuition. i've always hated it. never will stop hating it. i don't wanna go. i really wanna give up. i really do. what's the point in doing anything if i'll NEVER make it. I HATE SEC 3. grr. it sucks when people say. oh man i've got bio test, then the other person says, the other time i had physics test okay. whateverman. I'M NOT COPING. i'm NOT. the good thing is, that i don't wanna die. but i just don't wanna do anything. i'm being a bad example, but then again, i'm a bad everything so who cares.
the tragedy is that nobody cares.
so they said.
Monday, May 09, 2005
i think you hate me. no wait. i KNOW you hate me. great.
don't you know you're my only one.
so they said.
